Country living…

Someone asked me why we decided to move to Montana…

Moving from California is either a good thing or a crazy thing considering the person. Some people say, “why would you move here,” usually with a ghastly surprise. Others usually people born in Montana, “why did you California people have to come to our Montana.”

Usually my answer comes to main point of, I wanted to give me children a different life. Growing up playing in mud, running wild.

My mama gave me a great childhood, I managed to play in mud and be a crazy child…but now trying to let your baby run wild in California you have to keep an eye on them. Or have a tall fence… Believe me you still have to watch your babies in Montana, but you feel a sense of release, like you have a bit more trust with your neighbors.

At this moment I’m sitting in the truck waiting for my baby to awaken. She is taking her afternoon nap. My husband is working on cutting some wood for future projects. We are at our friends house a few miles outside of town. It’s peaceful here. To most people the thought of sitting in a car waiting for a baby to wake up seems boring or wasteful of a day. But looking out the truck window I have a wonderful view. My baby is sleeping and I’m listening to country music. It’s a peaceful afternoon.

Enjoy you weekend no matter where you are. There is always a way to see the happiness wherever you are. ❤️

Picture: Farm Life, April, 13th, 2019

Taken by: emily2jane

Self conscious…

Being called out for one of your past selfs actions, can hit you and make you feel so self conscious. It’s amazing I thought as I grew up I wouldn’t get embarrassed as much…mostly because having a baby changes you.

But still having someone you love make-fun of something you did before, makes your heart hurt. I know it wasn’t on purpose and the person meant to be funny but I’ve always been a self conscious person. I’m not spontaneous, I can’t be…especially now as the thing I was teased about was something I did spontaneously. It makes you think back through your life and question everything else.

Writing helps me deal with my problems or feelings, and move past them. It’s not a big thing it’s just something small…but it still gets me.

So I guess…don’t be afraid to be spontaneous. It terrifies me, but I’ll teach my daughter to be…she’ll learn the awesomeness of planning, but I hope she will not be as self conscious…being self conscious 90% of the time is not the greatest way to live. But I make do, because that’s how I am and I want to be just me.

Happy Tuesday, just because every day should be a happy day…😊

My cover photo ‘Facebook picture’ didn’t have someone’s name, just something I found.