Tag Archives: Mothers

Kiss.

I think the sweetest thing in the world… Is getting a kiss from your baby. When they don’t know how to give you a smooch and they just open up their mouth and place their whole everything on your cheek… and they give a soft giggle at the same time; it is one of the sweetest things in the world.

And when you return the kiss they laugh and giggle. That small giggle makes you feel so happy and warm.

As I’m writing this she’s talking along with me. She wants to help as mommy writes.

Even if it’s a thought of a kiss or a real one give it to someone you love today.💕

So you ever feel like your life stopped before it began. It’s not like I gave up or anything, but it seems like I’m in a rut.

Which when I say it (or typed it) it sounds awful because I’m a mama now. I have a wonderful 8 month old baby and I am super happy. She is now my everything.

I just feel like I missed out on a lot of things. Like college, I’ve never wanted to go to college before, but recently I’ve been regretting it. The social aspect of college, having only 2 life long friends you never see is difficult…

But again I love being a mama.

I guess a lot of it is, is that I gave up a lot of hobbies. I don’t do anything anymore. I don’t draw, paint, sew, dance, socialize…

Which again, I know, when you become a mama lots of things change, but I miss those activities.

As soon as my sleeping schedule is normal I will get back into drawing, but like today, my baby is wide awake at 2:00am; so it might be awhile.

I guess for me, I shouldn’t feel like I do, but I do. I’m in a rut and I don’t see me changing anytime soon.

But I love my baby dearly. She is my sweet thing. And she knows it ❤️

My sweet thing at 3:03 am

Country living…

Someone asked me why we decided to move to Montana…

Moving from California is either a good thing or a crazy thing considering the person. Some people say, “why would you move here,” usually with a ghastly surprise. Others usually people born in Montana, “why did you California people have to come to our Montana.”

Usually my answer comes to main point of, I wanted to give me children a different life. Growing up playing in mud, running wild.

My mama gave me a great childhood, I managed to play in mud and be a crazy child…but now trying to let your baby run wild in California you have to keep an eye on them. Or have a tall fence… Believe me you still have to watch your babies in Montana, but you feel a sense of release, like you have a bit more trust with your neighbors.

At this moment I’m sitting in the truck waiting for my baby to awaken. She is taking her afternoon nap. My husband is working on cutting some wood for future projects. We are at our friends house a few miles outside of town. It’s peaceful here. To most people the thought of sitting in a car waiting for a baby to wake up seems boring or wasteful of a day. But looking out the truck window I have a wonderful view. My baby is sleeping and I’m listening to country music. It’s a peaceful afternoon.

Enjoy you weekend no matter where you are. There is always a way to see the happiness wherever you are. ❤️

Picture: Farm Life, April, 13th, 2019

Taken by: emily2jane

Self conscious…

Being called out for one of your past selfs actions, can hit you and make you feel so self conscious. It’s amazing I thought as I grew up I wouldn’t get embarrassed as much…mostly because having a baby changes you.

But still having someone you love make-fun of something you did before, makes your heart hurt. I know it wasn’t on purpose and the person meant to be funny but I’ve always been a self conscious person. I’m not spontaneous, I can’t be…especially now as the thing I was teased about was something I did spontaneously. It makes you think back through your life and question everything else.

Writing helps me deal with my problems or feelings, and move past them. It’s not a big thing it’s just something small…but it still gets me.

So I guess…don’t be afraid to be spontaneous. It terrifies me, but I’ll teach my daughter to be…she’ll learn the awesomeness of planning, but I hope she will not be as self conscious…being self conscious 90% of the time is not the greatest way to live. But I make do, because that’s how I am and I want to be just me.

Happy Tuesday, just because every day should be a happy day…😊

My cover photo ‘Facebook picture’ didn’t have someone’s name, just something I found.

Visiting home.

It’s strange, that I live in another state now but that I still consider my mom’s house home…it’s a different kind of home. It has so many memories and my family is there. No matter what was going on we would all meet at mama’s and hang out. ❤️ I miss that so much!!

But we are on our way to see my family!! I’m so excited!!

But I’m also excited for my siblings to meet my daughter! She is 11 weeks today…and we are traveling south. The baby is behaving really well, we have a very well behaved baby. 😎

They will finally get to determined whether she is or not. I’m excited for my nephews to meet her. Especially the youngest because now there is a little person smaller than him.

Stopping in Utah, then we are coming home tomorrow!❤️