Life Of Two Best Friends: College CHPT 7

Life Of Two Best Friends: College CHPT 6

CHAPTER 7

Jerry was determined; he of course won. His reward was to throw Ken in the pool. I must admit it was hysterical. Ken splashed dramatically asking someone to “save him.” Jeremy was the one who reacted, but he used a floaty to fish him out.

“I was not about to get wet. It’s cold out here,” Jeremy pulled Ken up out of the water.

“I know now who my true friend is,” Ken attempted to drape his arm over Jeremy’s shoulder. He gave up after two failed attempts, because the moment was gone.

We were all walking back into the living room, as Mom and Dad came through the front door. “Wow!” Mom exclaimed, “It looks wonderful in here. Thank you so much,” and Mom once again was on her hugging spree.

We all just accepted them, except Ken who was still soaking wet.

“Oh, Ken,” Mom just shook her head.

‘She must be used to this happening.’

“Go shower and change like always. Who did it this time?” Mom gave each of us a questioning look.

Jerry proudly raised his hand; his smirk could be seen from outer space. “This was my doing; believe me he deserved it,” Jerry stood quite proud of himself.

‘I missed this. The guys. Mom. Dad. I will be sad to leave again.’ I looked over at Dad.

“Everything good?” Dad mentally asked raising his eyebrows.

“Yep. All is fine now,” I answered back. ‘Its cool that we still have that capability.’

“Well, am I taking you three home?” Dad picked back up his car keys again.

“Nah Mr. Matthews. I don’t know about these two, but I’m staying the night,” Ken said as he dashed up the stairs to probably go shower.

“What about you two?” Dad turned to Matthew and Jerry.

“I’m staying,” Jerry sat down on the couch. “You?” He asked Matthew.

“I wish I could, but my parents requested my presence. Probably wanting me to make a decision about my future again. So if you don’t mind Mr. Matthews,” Matthew swung his backpack over his shoulder.

“No problem at all,” Dad kissed mom on the cheek and headed back to the door, “I’ll be in the truck,” Dad left.

“I’ll see you tomorrow hopefully, unless my parents forcefully ship me somewhere,” Matthew gave me a quick hug. “See you Jerry,” Matthew waved. “Thank you so much for invinting me Mrs. Matthews,” Matthew called in the direction of the kitchen.

A loud, “Of course!” rang out; we all laughed.

“Tell the idiot I said bye,” Matthew, of course, was talking about Ken.

‘Ha. That’s fitting.’

“Bye Jeremy. It’s cool, one buddy came back and I gained another one,” then Matthew quickly disapeared out the door.

“He is a man of few words, isn’t he?” Jeremy said realxing down into a recliner.

“That was a lot of words for him,” Jerry and I chuckled.

“Well, let’s head up. Hopefully his majesty is done, and he didn’t use all the hot water again,” Jerry started towards the stairs as Jeremy followed.

I grabbed Jerry’s arm stopping him on the fifth step, “Jerry. If we are still awake do you think you can tell me what happened to Jenny?”

“Yeah. I was wondering when you would remember. Let’s get ready for bed first, and then I’ll finish her story. Without rattling this one,” Jerry thumbed at Jeremy.

“Cool. I would rather not be riled up again,” Jeremy shoved Jerry foward to continue up the stairs. “Come on, Geroge,” Jeremy said as he followed Jerry up.

‘I’ve missed this. The guys.’

Life As A Mama #46

Again…no comic but I do have a drawing. Another picture of my sweetness. ❤️

Drawing with color always takes more time. It’s strange, when I draw the comics with pen I have no hesitation…even though, if I make a mistake it is permanent.

But with markers I worry. I think it’s because if you put the wrong color you can’t fudge your mistake as easily as a black line.

This was day one. I’m still not the best at capturing her expressions…
The Parade
By emily2jane
07-21-21

I’m also not the best at proportions. All my schooling from my life drawing class has left my brain. I guess it’s time to take out that notebook…

Enjoy your Friday! Maybe be filled with smiles!! 😊

Journey With Cookbooks #22

Ramen… I was craving ramen and we did not have any of the prepackaged kind…I love that kind!!……..

Sorry. Just got distracted thinking of ramen, and the many ways to eat it!! So I decided to attempt to make some from scratch. I already am expecting this to be a fail, but I’m trying it anyways!!

Looks yummy!

Well I am just going to admit early. It will probably taste strange since I don’t have several of the ingredients. I will say, this recipe does not call for the many authentic ingredients…but I want ramen so I’m still going to make some!!

First fail…

It called for green onions. I don’t have any. I was going to use a yellow onion…but I don’t have that either…so red onion it is…

At this point it is smelling similar to the instant ramen…maybe it will work!!?

Cook the noodles!

Again a fail…it called for ramen noodles…I had egg noddles. I thought that would be better than spaghetti noodles…

Can you feel my uncertainty and lack of confidence as you read…haha! I know I can!

Well…I improvised again…

The recipe didn’t call for celery, but me, with my “extensive knowledge”, decide to try it. Probably since I thought this was going to be a flop I decided to go with the flow…

Add the beef broth…

It smells delicious! I’m sure it would have been better with the right ingredients, but I must say it smells alright!

Round steak.

It said to garnish with some steak and green onions. I at least have the steak! I’m not a complete failure. I only was going to use a few pieces for my dinner. I’ll cook the rest up when I make leftover servings.

The broth…

Still smells good. I’m not going to try it until it’s complete.

Sizzling steak!

At least I know one part of the meal is going to be edible.

Noodles.
Add the noodle…
Looks pretty good!

It would look prettier with the green onion garnish…but alas the time has come to see if it is a fail or not…

Wow! 🥵 Spicy! I only added 1/8 tsp of red pepper flakes…maybe when you cook red pepper flakes they increase in spiciness…well that’s a bummer.

The overall taste is not too bad, but the spiciness really hits you. The steak is a nice addition.

Look like photo: 2. Let’s be honest it looks nothing like the photo. I gave it a two: since there is broth, meat, and noodles…

Taste: …? 3…wow that’s a sad, sad score. Reading these scores you are going to be turned away. But I gave it a three because I could taste the instant ramen flavor under the the spiciness… 🥵 the spicy…wow. But I think it would have been better if I had the right ingredients.

Easiness: 9. It was pretty easy. It consisted of putting everything in a pot and cooking it. I just wish I had done a better job.

Thankfully the hubby was on a night shift. Meaning my complete failure was not for both of us… and Eli had Mac n cheese.

Well…I might try this again in the future…but I think I will just bite the bullet and buy the instant ramen when I want some! Ramen………❤️

Enjoy the rest of your day!

Life Of Two Best Friends: College CHPT 6

Life Of Two Best Friends: College CHPT 5

CHAPTER 6

We still just stood there. I thought once my parents were gone and we were in an empty house, Jerry would just explode. “Well, until you all want to discuss things,” I grabbed some trash bags and headed to the nearest table, “let’s clean up the house. I have to actually do the excuse I gave to an extent.” At first it seemed like Jerry was going to start things, instead he too followed my pursuit and started cleaning. The other three did the same.

‘Fine. If they don’t want to talk I will at least get some help cleaning.’

I was happy for the help, but enough was enough. Jerry was helping, but purposfully bumping into Jeremy; causing Jeremy to fall and making things worse. “Enough! What gives? Are you really so unable to realize that everyone makes stupid mistakes when they were younger,” I walked across the room and helped Jemery stand back up on his feet. “That yeah, he was a jerk in sophmore year,” I paused somewhat to make sure Jeremy understood.

Jeremy regained his composure, “No arguments there. I was definitely an immature jerk back then.”

“Only back then,” Jerry said under his breath.

“Say it loud enough for everyone to here. I thought we were friends. We never kept things to ourselves, we would just say whatever needed to be said to the other’s face. Have you changed so much that you are a coward now?” I was done with the slide remarks. We needed to move past this. Jerry was about to speak but I cut him off; I was not done. “Did you hear what Jeremy said. “An immature jerk.” Immature. Meaning he has now matured.” I could see that Jerry was fuming, but I was too.

“So what if he has matured. Should he really be forgiven for ruining someone’s life? So what if he was…what was it again?” Jerry looked to Ken.

“Verbally abused,” it was Jeremy who answered instead, “and since you have luckily never experienced it before, I would prefer you not speak your mind like you know anything about it,” Jeremy answered calmly, but his body was on edge.

“Fine. I won’t assume anything about what you went through. But can you understand that what you were dished for so many years, you in turn, did it to another human being. A girl,” Jerry waited for a response.

There was none. ‘I’m guessing because Jeremy couldn’t refute that. He did dish what he was served.’

“Why am I the only one chewing him out? What about you Matthew,” Jerry swiftly turned to the silent Matthew. “You had more to say after I got back; what happened to all your opinions?”

I looked at Matthew. He looked down, and then away.

‘What happened?’ Silence…

Slowly Matthew lifted his head back up; he looked me in the eye. It was an apologetic look. Then he turned to Jerry, “I judged Jeremy based solely on rumors. I apologize to you, dude,” Matthew looked to Jeremy, “I apologize for talking behind your back without knowing the facts.” Matthew waited for a response from Jeremy.

Jeremy just nodded.

“Jerry. You have to admit that you were wrong in your assumption. The rumors were that Jeremy was just a spoiled rich kid that just wanted to ruin other’s lives. I’m just quoting the rumors,” Matthew threw up his hands claiming innocence. “But seriously dude, now you know what he experienced throughout his entire young life, how can you still dislike his guts this much?”

Jerry didn’t answer.

“What I am more curious about,” as I spoke Jerry’s head snapped up, “you went to school with Jeremy for the past two years. You moved past your differences quickly. Why did you completely flip your opinion of him after you got home? What happened that I don’t know about?”

“Do you actually care?” Jerry spat out.

“Of course I do. What’s your deal?”

Jerry stepped towards me, “You…” Matthew pulled him back.

“It’s not unreasonable that Jerry said that George,” Ken finally chimed into the conversation. “You haven’t actually been here, virtually or present, these last two years.”

“I…” I stopped and just looked at them. I knew what they were saying was true. But they should understand that there was no way for me to be more present, with my schedule these last two years. “I get it. I know I was not there these lasts two years, but I was so busy. I’m sorry.” We need to get back to the real issue. ‘I do feel somewhat sorry for not being there for the guys these last two years, but I am not sorry about my choice.’

Matthew and Ken both slugged me on the shoulder while answering together, “No problem bro. We weren’t the best at keeping in touch either. School was crazy.”

I let the slugging slide, because we were good now. ‘Now Jerry.’

“Yeah. Fine. We are good,” Jerry said, but didn’t move.

‘That was painful to watch. At least we were past that.’ “So, since we moved past that…can someone tell me what happened?” there might have a tone to my voice, but it was just exhaustion; still, I wasn’t about to end this conversation until I found out the details.

They just looked at each other. Jeremy was silent next to me, but Ken, Matthew, and Jerry seemed to be talking without actually speaking. “Out loud…”

“Jenny was harassed in junior year,” Ken blurted out.

‘What!?!’

Matthew sighed, “Yeah. A couple of your old buds,” regarded Jeremy, “transferred to our school in our junior year. They tormented Jenny for days, saying it was your idea. That you told them to continue your legacy while you were gone,” Matthew looked to me.

I wish he hadn’t. I was fumming. Not at Jeremy, but the thought of what Jenny must have gone through. I couldn’t speak.

“Now do you understand why I hate this guy?” Jerry pointed once again at Jeremy.

“Can you not do that,” Jeremy changed his stance; he was now prepared.

“What? This!” Jerry thrust his hand almost inches from Jeremy’s face.

I reacted. I stopped Jeremy before anything could happen. Jeremy slammed into my back sending me forward into Jerry; we both laid sprawled on the floor. Jeremy just stood there controlling his shaking. I had seen this once before… Jeremy was doing a lot better than last time.

I stood and helped Jerry up. Then I walked over to Jeremy, “You good?”

Jeremy didn’t answer, but the shaking subsided. Before, Jerry’s face would have been rearranged. Jeremy has really changed this past year.

“Is he good?” Ken asked. He had just watched what happened, but seemed glued to the floor.

“Yeah. Just one of the many aftermaths of being abused for years,” Jeremy huffed out, bending over catching his breath. “Sorry,” he was now speaking to Jerry, “the pointing is a trigger. My dad and old coach used to do that, so much that I associate the pointing to what happened to my mom…” Jeremy stopped.

‘A whole new can of worms was just opened.’ I looked at Jeremy; Jeremy seemed annoyed that he said those last words. Silence. All eyes looked at Jeremy; when they got no response, they turned their gaze to me. Again I looked to Jeremy, and he was staring at me. I couldn’t tell if it was a, ‘You talk and your dead stare, or an explain for me stare.’ “I can’t read your mind, dude.”

“Just tell them,” Jeremy sat down on the couch and dropped his head into his hands.

“Jeremy’s mom was almost killed by his dad,” I stopped. With good reason, because all of their faces showed true horror. “Thankfully, his dad was not successful,” I added because I could see the questions forming on their faces. They all sighed of relief. “I know that his dad is serving time now for attempted murder. But the important part is, his…” I looked over a Jeremy’s hunched body; I knew I needed to say the next part, but I didn’t want him to feel the guilt all over again… “after hearing his mom’s side of the story, pointing became a trigger. I guess his dad did it to Jeremy’s mom just before he was going to…you know…” I wasn’t about to say it. “So Jerry, no more pointing,” I sat next to Jeremy; he was still working on his breathing to stay calm.

Matthew and Ken were the first to walk over to where we were sitting. They gave Jeremy reassuring pats on his shoulders. ‘I think Ken smacked him a little too hard, but Jeremy didn’t seem to notice.’ Finally Jeremy lifted his head up; he was calm once again.

We all sat there waiting for the fourth one to own up to his mistakes and put in the effort. I looked at Jerry; his face was still stunned. He wasn’t looking at me; it seemed like he wasn’t really looking anywhere. Finally he moved. Jerry finally stood in front of us. He still looked like he was in a daze. Nothing…

I was about to help him along, but…

Jerry looked up, “I’m…I…” and he dropped his head back down. Silence.

Jeremy got up and extended his hand to Jerry, “We good now?”

Jerry’s head bolted up. He looked at Jeremy’s face and then his hand. He just stood there looking at Jeremy’s hand…

Again, I thought nothing was going to happen, and I was about to smack Jerry out of his daze…

“Yeah. We are good,” Jerry shook Jeremy’s hand. “And…I’m sorry, I…”

“No problem, but no more pointing. I don’t know what would have happened if George didn’t step in between us. Your face might have been rearranged, like the last guy,” Jeremy chuckled.

“Maybe you should have done it,” Ken stood up from his chair, and walked towards Jerry, “he might actually get a date if he had a scar.”

We all laughed. Including Jeremy.

“Sleep with one eye open Ken…one eye,” Jerry stepped towards the laughing Ken.

Jeremy was the one to stop Jerry. “He’s my bud now,” Jeremy said stepping backwards to Ken and swung his arm over Ken’s shoulder.

“I like this,” Ken smuggly nodded accepting Jeremy’s statement this time.

Again we all abrupted with laughter. ‘Good. All things were fine now.’ Looking around I notice that the house was still as messy, as it was when my parents left. “Well since we are good now, do you think we can do a little bit more cleaning before my parents get home,” I scanned the area surrounding us…

“No problem,” Jerry took charge, “let’s divde it up.” Jerry drew imaginary lines in the air seperating out our spaces. “The first to finish their area wins. He will get to have a free pass of anything. Anything,” Jerry smiled creepily at Ken.

Anything.’ That reminded me of Jenny. ‘What happened to Jenny in the end?’ Before I could ask I heard and loud, “GO!” and everyone started to swiftly clean their areas. I’ll have to ask later…

Word Of The Day: Urbane 07-26-21

Synonyms: suave, sophisticated, elegant, civilized, etc.

Flash, snap, clap!

Pose.

Always in the spotlight.

Fame desired.

Leaving a large gap,

And constantly grows.

A beautiful sight.

Leaving all inspired.

Color following them;

No matter where they end.

Glisten like a gem.

We can only pretend.

Well this poem took some turns for inspiration as I wrote it. First I was thinking of a poodle… To be exact I thought of the poodle from Oliver and Company.

But then it morphed into celebrities. Which I’m sure, that is what most people will think is my main topic. But then I thought of the celebrities that you could look up to. Role models.

This is just my personal opinion. But I feel like there are only a handful of celebrities that I would actually like to meet, because they seem like genuinely nice people. Sad to say, a lot of people I wish I could have met have all passed away.

But anyways…everyone can label themselves urbane. Because everyone has their own hobby or skill that makes them special.

Have a fabulous day today!

Digital Art
emily2jane
07-26-21

Life Of Two Best Friends: College CHPT 5

Life Of Two Best Friends: College CHPT 4

CHAPTER 5

Not everyone, I had hoped to see, was at the party. I was told that Coach, Mrs. Bailey, and Lily were on a trip. It was still a great party, but I was constantly drawn back to our talk from earlier. But I spent most of the party with Matthew, since Ken was off hanging with Jeremy for most of it.

‘It’s strange to be back.’

“So dude, how is it being back home?” Matthew and I were outside, taking a breather, by the pool.

“It’s good to be back, but it feels different. Like…” I couldn’t really put my finger on it.

“Like you are a vistor and not the resident,” Matthew answered.

“Exactly. Wait…how did you know what I was trying to say?” I glanced at Matthew.

“It’s pretty much what Jerry said when he came back,” Matthew took a sip cola. “I’m amazed you will be going back again. I know it’s your plan to continue swimming, but I thought you would have missed your life here, a little bit,” Matthew kept looking forward.

‘I understand what he is feeling.’ “I do miss it here. If there was a way to reach my dreams by staying, I would; but right now the only fesible way to reach them is to return back home…I mean Montana.” ‘Crap. I’m sure that doesn’t help.’ “But what are your plans for College,” I swung my arm over Matthew’s shoulders, “after all the straight A’s in high school I assume you got some prestigous scholarship?”

Silence. ‘Was I wrong?’

“Yeah. Well we will have to see. My plans are kind of up in the air due to various reasons,” Matthew shrugged and sipped his drink again.

‘What?’ But I decided not to push the issue. Mostly because Matthew’s posture told me he was done discussing it. ‘What have I missed these last two years?’

“Well we should head back in there. Your mom put in a lot of effort, and you should do your job as the main character at today’s party,” Matthew stood and pulled me up with him. “Let’s go.”

Matthew walked back into the house, leaving me wondering; ‘What on earth is going on?’

Well…the party lasted about six hours. I was exhausted; more importantly, I was surprised that Jeremy was still functioning. He and Ken had spent most of the party
together. Probably talking things out and figuring out how they would interact from now on. There was no Jenny today. Dad had mentioned that she might try to make it, but that it was a long shot; I guess she has been super busy. Hopefully I could catch her before I go back.

“Where were you dude?” Ken had walked up to me just as the last guest left the house. “It seemed like you disappeard the entire evening.”

I laughed. ‘It was more like they disappeared.’ “I was around. Matthew and I pretty much made our rounds several times these last six hours. More importantly, I am amazed you are still functioning,” I said to the half dead looking Jeremy.

Yawning before answering, “I have probably had about ten…,” first looking to Ken; Ken nodded, “yeah…ten coffees. I too am amazed I am still awake, and not having a heart attack.”

All four of us laughed together. It seemed like everything was fine between us, but I forgot there was one missing… ‘Jerry.’ Just as I thought it, Jerry came out from the kitchen, slowly walking towards us. The laughing died. Nothing was said. We five just stood there in the living room.

“So…” Mom and Dad also came out of the kitchen; they probably stopped talking seeing the weirdness of us standing around without talking.

“Everything alright son,” Dad walked towards us?

“No problem at all. Thanks mom for the wonderful welcome back party,” I walked to mom and scooped her up into a big hug. “But to thank you, why don’t you let us clean most of it up for you. You and Dad,” I paused giving Dad a signal to tell him to take mom out, “go out for a date night, and don’t worry about anything.”

“What?! We cannot leave you this huge mess…” Mom pulled away from me to head back into the kitchen.

“Hon. Let’s listen to George on this. Anyways, you deserve a break,” Dad understood and started pulling Mom to the front door. “Don’t rush Son. We will go out for a late night dessert,” they were in front of the door.

“Oooo…” Mom’s face lit up, “I can’t say no to dessert. Thank you George,” and before I could say anything Mom pushed Dad out the door.

I chuckled to myself, ‘that’s my mom.’

Life As A Mama #45

Well…I haven’t had a chance this week to draw a comic…

VBS at church. Birthdays. Chasing my baby. Etc.

But I did find a chance to draw a small 4×6 drawing of Eli.

Yellow Summer
by emily2jane
07-23-21

The grass was improvising. Since the actual surroundings were too gray. I used marker and color pencil, on textured paper. I’ll do another one here soon! Also I’ll post a comic as soon as I can.

But still my sweet little thing in her pretty yellow dress.

Have a blissful yellow hued day!! 🌼

Word Of The Day: Expropriate 07-22-21

Synonyms: seize, take away, take over, etc.

No longer yours.

Indefinitely mine.

Try to grasp?

Yank away.

Forever endure.

Did I hear a whine?

Pathetic sap.

Just watch as it decays.

I mock at your distain.

And relish in your pain.

The green eyed monster,

Now clings to you.

Enjoy the view.

Hope your world turns blue.

As I wrote this poem I was really starting to get bugged by the person doing the stealing. Man, they sound like a pain.

But it could be anything. Love, job, life, family, etc. When I first read “take away“ I thought of being the person having it taken away… But then I thought of the person doing the taking away…and went with it.

Hope your Friday is filled with you keeping whatever is yours. HOLD ON TO IT!! Whatever it may be!!

Happy Friday!!

Grasp
By emily2jane
07-22-21

I drew this picture a few years ago. It is one of 5. They tell a story all together. I hope to paint them in the future!

Word Of The Day: Parry 07-17-21

Synonyms: ward off, fend off, deflect, hold off, block

It’s a constant battle,

You are always at war.

They claw and scratch;

Ripping at your soul.

Your insides are rattled,

Chaos to your core.

Ruthlessly they attach;

Demanding control.

Fight against them!

Fend them off!

Be firm;

He is on your side.

As they latch on your hem;

Point and scoff.

Don’t allow any squirm.

Help is always provided…

God thrives inside.

Quite obvious the topic choice. After reading the synonyms my first thought was… what lurks in the darkness. They come in many forms; we constantly fight them off. But for me I don’t fear them, because I have the light of God inside of me. Don’t fear because God loves everyone!!

Whenever I think about battling darkness, I think of that intense novel, This Present Darkness, by Frank E. Peretti. I love that book! But a piece of advice…don’t read it at night. I stayed up until 4am when I read it the first time.

Have a strong and faithful day!! ❤️

Digital Art: My Guardian Angel
By emily2jane
07-17-21

That’s someone darkness does not want to mess with. You are toast, if you do dare.

Journey With Cookbooks #21

Duh duh dunnnnnnnm!

The dessert from the other day….

We bought apple cider for a slab of meat on the fourth and we had loads of it left. So I went on a hunt to find apple cider recipes. And found…

Baked not fried…all thanks to stressbaking.com

The first picture is the start. I measured out 1 1/2 cups of cider and had to cook it down until there was only 1/2 cup remaining.

My cider!!
The dough…

The dough looks way better than when I tried to make churros…I’ll have to try that recipe again…

Fill the zippy…

Well my first mistake…I used one of our cheaper ziplock bags thinking I was being thrifty. But instead figured out too late that the bottom edge is not to a single point but to two…so when I cut the hole I made two smaller holes…😑

My…muffin pan…?

I don’t have a muffin pan. So I made one!! Mwhahahaha! I used tin foil and made the holes for the donuts. We shall see of it works…

Well…

It works…I think…

No! Be positive and confident!! It will work!!!

Did not fill the entire pan. So instead I pour a small amount of water into the extra spots.
You are probably asking why…?

Well Eli put this hat on me when I was making dinner…and I am still wearing it!! I am the coolest mama ever!

Not too bad!

The hubby couldn’t take it any longer and came to see what the delicious smell was…he helped me take all the foil inserts out.

Yum!

The holes did not go through on each donut, but in a pinch the foil inserts did work!

Topping…

Butter and a sugar cinnamon combination. What could be better?

If you can see a few are already missing…

Well another recipe finished!!

Look like photo: 10! Even without the muffin pan they look similar!

Taste: 9.9! Wow! They were so delicious and worth the wait!! I think I had two, Eli had two, but I have no idea how many the hubby had… I gave it a 9.9 because I think next time I am going to make a glaze frosting. I think it will go better with the texture of the muffin.

Easiness: hmm….maybe an 9! The longest part was waiting for the reduction of the cider…the recipe said it would take 30min, but for me it was closer to an hour.

Well hopefully this has helped you find another recipe to try!! It was so delicious! The recipe says they will last up to three days….I don’t think there will be any left by then…haha!