Short Story #22

“Hey Honey! Can you come here a second?” I call out from my office.

His head popped into the doorway, “What’s up, Hon?” Henry walked over to my desk where I was still glued to my laptop.

“What do you think? I want to present it to the meeting tomorrow. Do you think it is done? Do you think they will like it?” I shoved my laptop up into his arms.

Henry’s face glowed as he stared at the screen. He was doing his best to hide all emotions. He finally set the laptop on my desk in front of me, and he looked down at me.

I too gazed up at him awaiting his response…

He bent down and kissed me. A small sweet peck on my mouth. “I hope they love it. I do. I know my dad would have loved it too. He would have been so honored to have a library designed after him, but also be touched that he helped with the idea as well.” Again he kissed me; this one a little deeper. “Thank you Hon. I love it too.”

I smiled. No I beamed! I had hope my husband would love my design, but I’m so happy to know that I did old Hank proud. That Hank would have loved my design.

Hank had always wanted to design a library; a library that was fun for kids but also for adults. A library that would inspire reading. So I added caves, hideouts, secret panels, false walls, and at the center I added a tunnel called Hank’s Tunnel.

I stretched back up, and kissed my husband back; just a quick peck, “I’m so happy you love it! Do you think the board will approve it?”

“They would be dumb not to. It’s inspiring, interesting, captivating, and a memorable for someone. But it will all depend, I think, on your presentation. Let’s work on that tonight; I’ll give you some feedback and pointers so that they don’t reject your design.”

Oh! I loved him. Even though he just had a long hard day at work; he was still willing to help me with mine. “That sounds great! What’s your work schedule like for tomorrow?” I stood and snuggled into my husband’s embrace.

“Sadly I’m busy all day. Meeting clients and reps. I probably won’t see you until after working hours again,” He wrapped his arms tighter around me, “but I’ll make it home for dinner.”

“No problem. I’ll text you what the board members say as soon as the meeting is over. Good or bad, let’s have hamburgers tomorrow night. Sound good?”

“Sounds perfect.”

Well as much as I was hoping that today was going to be smooth sailing, I was so wrong. Sarah decided to present something today as well. And magically she gets to go before me; this is not the first time. But what many people don’t know, is she has stolen may last four designs. She must watch me sketch or take sneak pictures, but she always goes first and she always has my designs just tweaked a smidge, so that they are not identical.

I’ve never really cared. I’m a senior designer; I’ve been with the company now twelve years. I’ve designed various buildings, events, vacations, weddings, etc. I’ve not just settled for being one type of designer; I’ve always wanted to do it all. So Sarah has only stolen invitation designs, an art mural location, a cafe logo, and a coffee shop revamp. The last one was my last freebie to her though.

Three weeks ago, I told her as such. After that meeting I pulled her outside and told her she was to stop taking my ideas, or I would take this matter up the ladder to the VP. He was my direct boss.

Sarah was baffled at that. I’m guessing she believed she could do this forever. But she assured me that she had only “borrowed” the last few designs to secure a permanent job. She explained that her mom was sick and she needed the pay bump. Which I totally can understand; and why I decided to brush the last four designs under the rug. Only my husband knew the truth, besides me. But I adamantly told her she needed to submit her own work from now on.

So yes, I’m surprised Sarah is presenting today. Yes, I’m bummed I don’t get to go first, because hers might be amazing. But I’m pumped to present my design! I really hope that the proposal goes through and Hank’s library can come to life. I was ready. With my husband’s help last night I was ready for any type of question that might be thrown at me. Thinking of my husband I sent out a quick text as I settled into my chair in the meeting room. ‘The meeting is about to start. I’ll text you after. Love you.’

Just as I put my phone on silent he texted back, ‘love you too! Good luck!’

I love him. Sarah came into the room, and I put away my phone. She settled onto the chair across from me. The other employees and members followed in behind her. I was ready!

Or not…

Sarah started her presentation. It was a library. She said it was a new kind of library. She clicked for the next slide, “It will be called Hank’s Library,” her voice echoed in my head. It was exactly same as mine. Exactly. She didn’t even try to hide her crime. Everything was the same, down to the tunnel named Hank’s tunnel. That was my special gift to my father-in-law.

I was livid! Enough was enough! This ends here! I stood suddenly; smacked my hand down on the table, “Enough!” Everyone jumped at my outburst. I didn’t just stand still, waiting for retaliation; I moved towards Sarah. I was like a cobra sizing up its prey. It was no longer a battle; it was a bloodbath. “So Sarah, do you want to stick to your claim that this design is yours? Or do you want to retract your previous statement?” She didn’t deserve a chance, but I gave it to her anyways. Sarah just stood there frozen. She didn’t speak. No one spoke, actually. They all were silent.

“I don’t know what you are saying, Joleen. This IS my design.” Sarah manage to get the words out without sounding like a complete liar.

So she decided to take the path to being fired. I shook my head and walked past Sarah to the front of the room. “Ladies and gentleman, you are being lied to, and if it was to continue it could have major repercussions to the company. The design that my colleague tried to present; is actually my own design. I unplugged Sarah’s USB and plugged in my own. Almost an identical opening slide popped up, but mine looked more professional. My husband had given me some pointers of what the board members liked to see. I didn’t wait for anyone’s approval; I just began my presentation. It was clear, precise, informative, but still open to suggestions. When I finish; applause erupted around. All but Sarah who was still standing where I left her.

“Well Joleen,” Samuel Kingsley was the first to speak, “I must say that was indeed a wonderful presentation and a truly remarkable design. But the issue of whether or not this project is indeed yours cannot be proven,” he was saying this less to me and more to the table.

“It can,” I looked him directly in the eye. He wouldn’t look at me; so he was a schemer too. “I’ll open up the next segment for questions. If certain questions are asked; then the truth will surface naturally.

“Why is it called Hank’s library? Who is Hank?” Stephen called out into the silence.

“That’s the question. Thank you Stephen. Hank is my Father-in-law, or I should say was. He passed away before this idea could become a reality. Hank’s tunnel was actually his input,” that last remark I directed solely at Mr. Kingsley. He started to fidget in his chair.

“Do you even have proof?” Sarah finally blurred out finding her voice, “I called it Hank’s Library because of a role model in my life. The tunnel was because my nephew was chimming in with ideas and suggested a tunnel. This is my design!”

She was good. I didn’t expect her to have a story cooked up. I did have proof, but it was in my study at home. I knew that with Mr. Kingsley backing up Sarah they wouldn’t allow me to run and get it. Or even if I did, they would say I faked it. I only had one option. I walked back to my seat; dug my phone out of my bag and texted him. ‘Pineapple.’

My phone vibrated and his name flashed on the screen. I answered, even though phones were forbidden during meeting hours, “hey, could you get something from my house? Yeah. I’ll tell the nanny to grab it for you. She knows where it is. No. It’s not good. A colleague tried to steal my design. The same one. They say I need proof. A Mr. Kingsley,” I glanced at Kingsley who looked confused at the sight before him. “You will. Thank you. I’ll tell her now.” I hung up my phone, but before stowing it away I texted my nanny to have the proof ready for him. I stowed my phone away, and settled back down into my chair.

All eyes were on me. “Well?” Sarah said with disgust, “are you going to prove yourself?”

I laughed, “did you not hear me on my phone? Do your ears not work. Maybe they don’t; since I told you three weeks ago that I would not allow you steal another one of my designs.” Sarah’s face went white. She tried to interrupt, but I cut her off, “no. You don’t get a say. I was going to be understanding and let you keep those last four proposals, but you trying to steal this design. A design that I worked on with my father-in-law before he died. That on the day he died, he begged me to make it a reality. That he wanted to watch from heaven; seeing his grandkids running around the library,” I wiped an escaping tear from my cheek. I truly missed Hank.

“But no. You had to steal again. So yes, I will be filing a complaint against you with your last four projects. I’m amazed you are willing to do this with everything you have on the line. Your mom, your career, your future. When it is proven, and it will be, you will be blacklisted. Do you not understand that?” I was still livid, but I also felt a smidge guilty towards her mom.

“What issues with her mom?” Cassandra blurted out. She was just a small fry in the far back; “her mom is vacationing in the Bahamas right now I think. Right, Sarah?”

Wow. Just wow. “So you not only steal projects; but you lied so easily about your mom. Here I was feeling guilty towards her lying in a hospital. But actually she doesn’t even know anything about this or anything at all,” so Sarah was just a leech.

“None of this actually proves anything. Right, everyone?” Sarah pleaded with the table and the now crowd that had formed at the door. “She’s just stalling; she has no proof, or she would have brought it forward. Mr. Kingsley, I think we should proceed, and just use Joleen’s presentation as my own, since she interrupted me. Everything she said was my own thoughts, except for the person inspired.”

“True. Very true. I believe you would have done an amazing job on your presentation as well,” Mr. Kingsley now stood beside Sarah.

I wonder how much he supported her. As if reading my mind Kingsley rested a hand on the small of her back. Nothing I said would help, instead I settled into my seat, waiting for the man to show up.

As if on cue, “who is questioning my senior designer?” The VP walked into the room.

“Mr. Walters,” Mr. Kingsley walked over to the VP, “Joleen has stolen Sarah’s project, she” the VP held up a hand.

“Really,” Mr, Walter’s glanced in my direction, “show me the design in question. You are Sarah right? You present it to me. You had just mentioned, before I came in, that you would have said everything that Joleen had said. You will have fifteen minutes for your presentation, and you must cover everything she did, word for word. Begin” the VP took his chair at the far end of the table.

Sarah again didn’t speak. She just stood there baffled and stunned at his request, but she couldn’t very well deny the VP’s request.

“Mr. Walter’s, it’s not right for us to expect perfection,” Mr. Kingsley tried to defend Sarah.

Again he held his hand up, “so she forfeits her chance to prove herself. Alright, Joleen,” I stood. “Will you present your presentation again? Same expectations apply. Will you?”

“ I will.” I walked back to the front and presented again, but this time there were no nerves. It was truly perfection. I was again greeted with applause, plus the VP’s.

“Does anyone still question the true owner of this design?” Mr. Walters asked the room.

“That’s not proof. She said she had proof. When she interrupted me; she wiped my brain clean. It must have traumatized me, and that’s why I couldn’t present when I was asked. She hasn’t proven anything.” Sarah finally spoke.

I’m realizing that she can only speak when it is lies coming out of her mouth. That honesty gets trapped and lies just flow. I wanted to…

“You mean this proof?” The VP held up a yellowed napkin in a plastic sleeve. However, this napkin was all marked up with ideas and sketches. The words unmistakably titled the napkin, Hank’s Library. There was a note jotted at the bottom saying Hank’s tunnel. But the most important marking was the bottom right corner. There were the names: Hank and Joleen. Plus the date 12-03-2019; almost three years ago. Proving Joleen as the official designer of the library.

Talking erupted! And as if cohesively, all eyes stared at the two who definitely lied.

“How do we know someone didn’t fake this evidence, because she is a senior designer,” Sarah blurted out.

But she was not met with understanding; but with shock and horror. Because this time she didn’t question me, she was accusing the VP.

What she said must have dawned on her because she started to backtrack. “I wasn’t. I didn’t.” Mr. Kingsley too moved away from Sarah; probably realizing she was a sinking ship now.

I too walked back to my seat; but this time I relaxed into my seat waiting for what would come next. The bloodbath was ending.

“Ms. Marks, you have proved to be without morals and untrustworthy. You have also committed forgery and with a further investigation, an additional four more forgeries. You will go to HR today to go through the process of termination,” Mr. Walters did not look her way, instead he had been typing a text. He stowed his phone back into his jacket pocket and looked at the astonished Sarah. Two security men came into the room. “Please escort Ms. Marks to HR, and then off the premises. Use force if necessary. Please leave,” motioning to the door.

“No! I won’t leave. This is my job. I need this job! You can’t fire me. On what basis. I’ll sue you!” Sarah was frantically attempting to escape the security’s grasp. But she was no match for them. They grabbed her by the upper arm and escorted her out the door and off to HR. She continued to protest until her voice could no longer be heard.

“Now. For Mr. Kingsley. You are under investigation. You are suspended without pay until the verdict is in,” Mr. Walters again did not look at the person in question but instead was texting.

“On what grounds? You have no say in this matter. I’ve been with the company twenty years. Sarah lied to me as well; I thought I was helping a younger generation succeed in the workplace. What gives you the right to,” he stopped his rant. Because he went too far. Just like Sarah had done. Questioning the company, arguing the claims put against you, all fine; but don’t put the blame on the VP.

Two security guards came once again. “Will you go willing? Or will they need to forcefully remove you from the premises too?” Mr. Walter finally glanced at the now very screwed Mr. Kingsley.

“I’ll take my leave willingly,” and he strode from the room with the security guards following.

“Congratulations Joleen,” Mr. Walter stood from his chair and shook my hand. “Your design and presentation was superb. Everything I expected from my senior designer. I will be sending the recording of your presentation to the other board directors, but it should be accepted. It was outstanding. Take this victory!” Mr Walters handed me the sleeved napkin. Then he left the room.

‘It should be accepted!’ Mine and Hank’s hard work finally payed off. My coworkers congratulated me as they went back to their desks. I sat once again in that chair. Soaking up everything that had happened. But next I did what needed to be done.

Text: “Happiness!”

I got home maybe ten minutes before Henry came through the door. With meat covered hands and all, I ran from the kitchen to him. My pose ready for a hug; he laughed and pulled me in for one, but while avoiding my hands.

“Good work today! I’m glad that everything has been resolved and you can move forward without worry.” Henry followed me to the kitchen.

“All thanks to you!” I went back to forming the hamburgers. “I don’t know what I would have done if you had been busy.”

“Well you got my attention when you sent the word pineapple. I was so confused. I thought maybe you had sent a voice text and it autocorrected it to pineapple,” Henry chuckled about it was he sat on a barstool.

I washed my hands and joined him on the barstools. The hamburgers could wait. “I thought that was your panic word,” I laughed at my mistake. “I thought using it would kickstart everything.”

“Now that you say that, I do remember saying something about pineapple. Well it worked even though I forgot,” Henry pulled my barstool closer to him, my legs in between his. “Now you know to not allow projects to be stolen. Because greed always comes with that. They always want one more; because it’s easier than doing the work themselves.”

“You’re right. I’ll try to be better. I’m bummed though; that no one can know our relationship at work.”

“You know,” Henry started…

“I do. I know it would become a weakness to the both of us. All of our competitors would use it against us. But I will say the secret office romance is fun too,” I smiled at him. “A VP and a senior designer, it’s like one of those romance books.” I laughed but he didn’t.

Instead all I could see on his face was wanting. Desire. Love. So I leaned forward and closed the gap between us with a deep kiss. I started to pull away, but he grabbed my face and deepen the kiss.

A VP and a senior designer fell in love and lived happily ever after.

The End

Digital Art By: emily2jane
09-19-26

My Current One.

What’s the longest book you’ve ever read?

I am reading the Bible. I’ve never actually read my Bible all the way through.

Listening to a pastor I really like; he said that he understands that trying to do the Bible in a year or a personal bible study can be difficult to keep at it. That people start the journey of reading the Bible and they stop, or get behind, or don’t make it a daily thing.

But his suggestion was, start at the beginning and just read one chapter a day. Yes, it will take a long time to finish. But it’s easy enough to take 5min of your day and just read one chapter.

And believe me. It is simple. Even more so that I occasionally read 2-3 chapters in my sitting time. It’s only about 10min of my morning. But some days I only have 5min so I read one, but I read at least that one.

I started reading August 1st. And I’ve read every day since. I’m currently on Book: Numbers chapter 19. I’m moving along. And I discovering that I actually have never learned the true actual stories from the Bible. That veggies tales or dreamworks movies are obviously made for kids, but that they left out a lot of details and information.

I knew that. But now reading the Bible I’m actually learning a lot. I’m remembering things. I can discuss things with my husband, or tell him about what I’m reading. Or tell my mom. It’s been good!

So if you have been feeling like you want to learn and read your Bible more, try what I’m doing. Read one chapter a day. Once I’m done reading, I’m going to try a Bible study that is free online, but I wanted to read through the Bible once before diving further.

So to answer the question…The Bible is the longest book I’m currently reading. And it’s going great! I’m excited for my journey.

Have a wonderful Wednesday!

Word Of The Day 09-12-26 Minimalist

Synonyms: simple, unadorned, spartan, spare, unfussy, stark, etc.

The stand guard,

In the yard.

Anything that dares to come in,

Will die for their sun.

No extra care needed,

They won’t get heated.

They just go about their day,

Maybe munching on hay.

You may not see them,

They are a true gem.

If you listen, you will hear,

That loud hee-ha in your ear.

The donkey is near!

I really wanted to write about an animal when I first read the word of the day. Minimalist. I didn’t really use the word, but it was my inspiration.

To me donkeys are so low maintenance. When we eventually get some land, we are getting a donkey. They take less work than a dog or geese. And geese are mean. But the donkey is a good alarm, but also they will trample animals that dare to trespass. So I want one.

I don’t know its name yet. But when we eventually get one I’ll know its name.

Haha!

My husband’s suggestion today for the word minimalist was, survival and death. Or his second suggestion was stupidity…I think he’s in a grumpy mood. He just had surgery and he is not recovering as fast as he wanted to. But I decided to not go with his idea. I wanted a more positive topic today.

Have a great Saturday!! Fall is here!! 🍁 Pumpkin foods are soon approaching.

Hmmmm?

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

Happy.

Haha!

But seriously, I know I’m going to be happy.

My husband and I have already worked through many trials: depression of moving from family, postpartum depression, sadness of wonder about having another kid, financial stress, moving, downsizing, in-law stress, etc. we’ve dealt with it all in our first 9 years of marriage. And through lots of communication and hard work we are still together and strong. And we are happy.

He is venturing off into a career. He wants to be an airplane pilot. And I’m being his rock. I’ll hold the fort down while he does the hard grind. But we are happy. We talk through everything. I’ve gotten better to just speak my mind. I’m trying really hard to not let things fester. Just talk about it from the get go. But we are happy now, and we will only continue to grow.

Have a happy weekend ❤️

Short Story #21

Jane

“Yeah. I feel like there might already be a child out there with that sales clerk. The wife wants a fifth child. So technically I’ve already reached that number right?” Laughter bellowed out the bar doors.

I stood there. Hand on handle. ‘So everything had been a lie? From the beginning? My deal breaker at the beginning of our relationship was I wanted us both to be a virgin. I never wanted to worry if my husband was thinking about someone else. Or would start to compare me to his first.” He assured me I was his first. And of course he was mine. Now it all comes to light. I wasn’t his first. There had been someone else. Was me wanting our family to have one more child really cause for mentioning someone I thought didn’t exist. Especially tonight, he was in talking to our friend group. We had asked them out to dinner. Because I wanted to share our, what I thought was happy news; I was pregnant with our fifth child.

I just found out this morning. I wanted to surprise Jasper with everyone but I couldn’t keep it a surprise. I blurted it out at breakfast. “I’m pregnant!!” Now I understand why I couldn’t really figure out his expression. He was shocked, happy, but something else, that at the time I didn’t know. It was disappointment. He was happy we were pregnant, but he had also wished for it not to happen. After our last daughter was born I asked if we could try for one more; so that we could try to give our son a brother. My husband at the time agreed to it willingly. And joked that he would try his best to make a boy, but that nothing could be chosen. I didn’t force it on him, I didn’t hang it over his head. I thought we both wanted it. I yanked open the door, I should find out what’s going on with him.

“Yeah. She was hot. I actually am following her again. Let me pull up her profile so you can see what I had early on!” He, without any remorse pulled his phone from his pocket and started scrolling.

I was now standing just inside the entrance. But their table was maybe fifteen feet away from where I stood. So I heard and saw it all. I heard his aroused tone, and saw his face. My heart twisted in a new way, hurt in such a way I had never known. He still looked at me that way. All these years. He still looked at me with desire and pleasure. How could he make that face for a woman he only sees online. He looked at me that way just before our baby was conceived. Had he been thinking about her?

‘No! Now the thoughts are happening. This is what I didn’t want. This is why being a virgin was so important to me. That I wouldn’t wonder if he settled for me back then, and every time he thought of her…’ That thought hurt more than anything. Did he ever love me? Was I just what he could get? Did he ever want our kids? Did he ever want me?…

“Jane! There you are!” My friend Gloria called out to me.

I wasn’t going to stay. I waved at Gloria. At the rest of the table. I started to back away.

Gloria rushed up to me, “Hey sweetie. It’s okay. It’s okay. I’m here. What do you want to do?”

“I want to leave. I don’t want to be here anymore,” I glance at him. He was still glued to his screen. Almost drooling. It was a disgusting sight. “Please. I don’t want to see him.” I started to turn back to the door.

“Alright baby. Let’s go! Ladies! We are leaving if you want to come with us to my house.” Gloria held me in her arms to escort me out of the restaurant. I was glad for her help, because I don’t know if I could have walked on my own. All of the women at the table got up from their seats and made a mad dash to the door. A few of the husbands that had still been sitting at the table, instead of gawking at Jasper’s phone; they too stood to leave the restaurant.

I glanced over once again through the glass door showing my lustful husband; panting as he looked at her photos. My heart crumbled.

Jasper

“Dude? Dude!? Jasper!?” Marlene’s husband who had stayed at the table to chew Jasper out.

“What!?!” Jasper finally looked up from his phone. The other husbands too looked up from the screen. “Wait? Where is everyone? Why is it only you Jacobs?”

“Because you are…the worst of the worst. We are in public, or you would not be getting this treatment. Are you really enjoying looking at another woman that much? Really? Did you not think about how your wife would feel if she knew what you were doing?”

“What are you talking about, man? I showed her picture once, then after looking at her again I realized Jane is way hotter. That I’ve been stupid these last few days. I don’t know what made me even think of her. Probably one of those demons we just learned about in church, that their mission is to ruin marriages. As soon as I deleted her profile I asked God to cast the demon out. I feel better than I have these past five days. I’m here to tell you! Don’t let that kind of demon inside of you, they really do hit you hard and make you become a…butt of yourself. Public.” Jasper sat down at the table with the rest of the husbands. “We’ve been looking at the different foods they serve here. I’m starved and I thought this would help keep my hunger at bay. Why?”

Jacob was stunned by Jasper’s recant of what really happened. Here he had thought the worst of him. He was about to put him through the wringer. Jane… “Dude. You need to go find your wife. She heard you. She heard everything. She was here. That’s why everyone else is gone. They heard you too. They misunderstood just like I did. But dude. Jane looked broken. She looked…” Jacob whipped out his phone. Texting his wife Marlene to let her know the true story. “What are you still sitting there for? Go!”

“She heard me,” Jasper smashed his face into his hands. “She heard me?! What exactly did she hear?! Be specific!”

“All of it. She was just at the entrance door when you mentioned thinking you had a kid with that woman. Marlene knew Jane had heard, just based on her expression. Then she came inside, and heard you say that the other woman was hot, that you are following her, and if anyone wanted to see her pictures. They left pretty much after that. But dude. You did look possessed. At least when you went to look at her pictures. You looked hungry for it. If you had not said you felt possessed, I would have described you as such. But dude, you need to go explain to her. I’m guessing she thinks you have been cheating a while now. Or even…”

“Even the whole time,” Jasper said between his fingers. “At the beginning of our relationship; Jane told me it was important to her for us to be both virgins. That she didn’t want to be constantly worried that I was comparing her or thinking about someone else. She told me it was a deal breaker. But instead of telling the truth, and possibly losing her…I lied. I said I was a virgin even though I wasn’t. I slept with that other woman once. Once in college; long before I met Jane. It didn’t mean anything. I was stupid and wasted. I don’t remember anything. All my years with Jane have been brand new to me. I didn’t know you could love someone so much. I should have been honest. I just loved her already; I didn’t want to miss out on a wonderful life with a wonderful woman like Jane, because of a stupid mistake.”

“Then why did you even say what you did today? If you love her as much as you say you do; you would have known that your words would hurt her. Then why?”

“I don’t know why…maybe I’ve been nervous to be a dad again. Our four children are already a handful. But I love all our kids. And I love that they all came from Jane. I really have no explanation for my actions this past week.”

“What caused you to follow her initially?” Samuel had chimed in after sending a very quick text to his wife.

All three extra husbands sent out texts explaining what had happened. That they really had been drooling over food pictures. Not that they too were looking at other women, but as you can expect no one texted back. Except Marlene, but she said unless he came in person it was no use.

“I wanted to get Jane an excellent gift for being a mom again. I had asked my coworkers what they did, when they truly wanted to surprise their loved ones with a gift. A few men said they look through their wife’s instagram profile. So I tried that. I’ve never been on that sight. I had to download the app and everything, man that was a pistol. But it was really helpful. My wife had everything on there. All of her wishes for ease with our next child. It was amazing! I also had the thought it might be useful to keep this so that if our kids get it I can keep an eye on them. But then there on the list of friend suggestions she was. I don’t know why I even clicked on her. I don’t know what drew me to her. But then I went down the rabbit hole. And man! When you introduce spiraling to your life; you go down hard. These last few days I’ve been glued to my phone. I never messaged her, I just looked at pictures. I didn’t do anything either; I just looked. I think the Holy Spirt in me kept the demon from going farther. Which I am so thankful for, if I had acted on anything; I would never forgive myself. But Jacobs..” Jasper rose from his chair, walked over to a standing Jacob, and grabbed his shoulders, “can I save it?”

“I really don’t know. But Marlene says nothing is going to be heard unless you go apologize to Jane in person. That Jane has locked herself in the bathroom with the water running. That Marlene can hear her sobbing. Dude, you better go before she shuts you out completely.”

That was all Jasper needed; he left to find his wife.

Jane

I finally turned off the water. I forgot that I wasn’t in my own home. I’d give Gloria some money to help cover the water bill. But was that really important at this moment. No. My husband hasn’t loved me at all. Not honestly. But he has… Marlene had told me, through the door, that it was not as bad. That Jasper had only cheated mentally, but only for the last week. Nothing else. That her husband Jacob had told me about feeling possessed, and that he had switched to food a second after he looked at the woman’s picture once more. But did any of that matter? No. He has lied to me from the very beginning. He lied to me…tears were starting to well up again. But what was I going to do…I had never had a thought of divorcing Jasper. That in church we had recently learned that divorce should never be brought up in a fight or be an option. That you should try everything possible first. Counseling? That’s an option. But would I be able to forgive him? This was why I wanted…”

“Jane! Honey. Opened the door!” Jasper was banging on the bathroom door. “Answer me please! At least unlock the door. You are pregnant with our baby! Please, at least unlock the door, so that I can help if you need me. Please!”

Jasper!’ My heart reacted before my brain could stop me. I wanted to hug him, but I stopped. Not that I didn’t want to forgive him, but that I needed to know from him personally that he was sorry. “I’ll unlock it,” my voice croaked out, “but you can’t come in.” I whined as I got up from the ground.

“Are you okay? I won’t come in. I’ll send Marlene in if you need help. But please be safe!”

“No. I’m fine. But no coming in.” I unlocked the bathroom door. I wanted to fling the door open to him. But his face from earlier. His words. He wanted that woman. How was I supposed to move past this? This is everything I worried about. This lie made my heart crumble, and I don’t know if he could tape it back together. We are bringing a life into the world. We have our other four little ones. We have had an amazing life together. But can I…?”

“I won’t come in. I promise. I also promise Jane that I’m so sorry. It all started out innocently. I went on instagram to buy you all your wish items. The demon must have latched onto me the moment I saw her profile; and I’m ashamed to say that I clicked on it. I’m so disgusted with myself. But the lustful demon had weaseled itself around me after that. I’m not excusing my actions. But I want you to know, it’s only been these last five days and I’ve only had thoughts; I swear to you! Nothing more happened. Please. Can we do counseling, and find a group to work through this. I’ll do anything! I just don’t want to lose you. I’m sorry I lied at the beginning. I should have told you the truth. That I was lost at that point in my life, I was wasted, that she meant nothing to me. That I had forgotten about her until you told me your deal breaker. That I wasn’t a virgin when we met; but that I already was totally in love with you and I was terrified I would lose you. Jane I’m so sorry. Please forgive me!” Jasper was just outside the door.

I loved him. I still did, I’m still hurt. And angry, but I knew I still loved him. I’m so thankful that God was looking out for him. That he had not gone farther. Farther would have been hard to forgive. Coincidentally enough we just learned in church last week that it’s possible to forgive, but hard and long.

But I love him…

I stood by the door. I could hear Jasper quietly sobbing outside the door. The door was the only divider.

I love him…

I cracked the door open and looked at the man that had hurt me. He was right beside the door, leaning against the wall with his forearm over his eyes. I could see the tears spilling down his face.

I loved him. Even with the hurt. I loved him.

I gradually inched out of the bathroom. I faced him. ‘What do I do? What will I say? What will he say?’ I softly touch his elbow.

He jumped at my touch. He fell to the floor startled.

Before I knew what was happening, he was embracing me. He was cradling my head in his hand. He was still silently crying into my shoulder. But his arms told me he wasn’t letting go.

“Jasper. Jasper. Jasper!” I pushed away from his embrace.

He had let me go, but his hands were reaching out to me still. Not knowing what to do with them, when empty. His hands dropped to his side and his head fell, “I’m so sorry Jane. Please forgive me. Let’s do counseling, a life group, anything. I willing to do anything to gain your trust back.”

The man I loved and love stood before me as someone who I had never seen. A broken man. Not confident. Vulnerable. Fearing.

I walked to him and hugged him. His arms were still at his sides, but this was a reassurance hug for him. “I’ve not forgiven you yet, and it will take a while for my heart to heal and try to trust you again. But I’m willing to work with you to solve this problem. I,” I hesitated a second, “I love you, Jasper. But it’s going to take time to heal.” His crying had turned to shudders, so I pulled away from him.

But Jasper clasped my arms and pulled me back into a hug. He was shaking; worried that I was leaving again.

I didn’t say anything. Instead I just stood in his arms.

This road to recovery will be hard and long. But I’m going to do it. For the sake of my marriage, my kids, and this new beautiful life we are bringing into the world.

The End

Easy!

What’s the best and worst airport you’ve been to?

I’ve not been to many airports. But the worst and the best have stood out.

The lesser airport has been Denver airport. For some reason whenever we would get a lay over at Denver, there would be some odd characters around. Odd characters that did not understand personal space or inside voices. Haha 😂 It’s not so much the airport, but the occasional characters. Like the woman who NEEDED! to show her hula hoop dance to anyone who came near her. Or the man who was crudely and passionately yelling at a pillar for about forty minutes. The prayer or dance or sharing circles that would start off quiet but eventually would become an unusual sight to behold. A man who stood against a window with his arms out and his hands gripping nothing; staring at you as you walked by, and occasionally would bark at people if they got too close.

Believe me. I wondered if any of these characters were staged, but this was before everything was recorded and put online. Like a woman who would fart, horrendous farts, and then look around glaring at people because she thought they were the cause of the smell. Her husband was the best part though. Every time she would fart, he would cover his face with his hand and begin to shake because he was hiding his laughter. Thankfully we were not sitting next to that couple.

On the other hand, my favorite airport is Cheyenne, WY airport. I don’t know if it’s different now, but that was the smallest airport I can remember. They had one security line. And the guard for it was asleep when we walked up. He did compliment my socks; he said, “they were rad!”

And the gate to wait at, was just around the corner, and it was one of those temporary office buildings. Only one gate. Haha!

I want to visit Cheyenne again. Even if just to go experience the airport again. That was about ten years ago; it’s probably different now.

Enjoy your Tuesday! It truly is a beautiful day!

Finished Another!

“Blossoms”
Painted By: emily2jane
20×24”
09-1-26

I just finished another painting! And I actually have found a gallery that is willing to sell some of my smaller paintings. I’ll keep searching for a gallery that will accept larger scaled paintings.

So excited! I was talking with my husband about this, and he said I’ve been trying to get my paintings in a gallery for the last 10 years, but life kept happening. Being pregnant, moving, pregnant, moving, pregnant, moving, etc. Haha! Do you see a pattern?? But finally a dream of mine for the last twenty years, but truly ten years is finally being realized!

If you can’t tell I’m excited!

Have a great Friday!

1st day of my new painting.

Started another painting. Did the mapping out yesterday…I’ll post it when it is finished. I’m excited for this one too!

Online

How did you meet your significant other?

It’s pretty amazing if you think about it.

My now husband and I probably crossed paths throughout our lives. But never actually met.

We were both apart of the same swimming world. We actually went to several swim meets at the same time. We probably stood in the same space, because we swam the same events. So I would swim first, and he would be waiting his turn to swim. But never intersected. But to his defense, when I was behind the blocks I wasn’t focusing on anything but my race; and after the race I was dead. Haha!

Another, is his older sister was friends with one of my teammates. So he would often go over to her house. But I wasn’t friends with that teammate. She was four years older than me, and we didn’t get along well. But that teammate live a few blocks from my grandparents house.

My husband worked around the block from my mom’s house. So he drove by my mom’s house everyday. He actually had told me that he saw a strange girl painting a front window of a house. Me! He was also amazed at how much my mom’s front yard was changing, and wonder who the work was being done by. ME! Haha. But never met.

Then another was that, my now husband, grew up in a house up the street from my cousin. The year before meeting my husband, I would drive my brother out to that cousin’s home. I could see my husband’s childhood house from the driveway of my cousin’s home. It was that close! But never met.

So I went online to find someone. You had to be outgoing, back then. Meet someone in a social setting, and I preferred not social. Also I my friends, at the time, didn’t share the same values. The few times I spent time with them…I felt uncomfortable or conflicted with their behavior while being a Christian. My life consisted of family, art, work, church. So online was my only option.

I’ve written so many times about meeting my husband. I searched for him for a long time. My first date with him, was the last time I ever wanted to go on a first date. I was finished after that date. To get invested and to meet and be lied to, time and time again gets rid of the desire to meet someone.

But he wasn’t a lie. He looked just like his picture. Handsome. So handsome. Dressed the way I liked. He was the opposite of me. He was confident. Talkative. Enthusiastic about his life. I don’t know how to describe it, but I knew he was the one. Probably God telling me. On so many other dates, I got the feeling of “no, not this one.” But my husband I knew instantly. Actually after my first date with him, I told my mom he was the one. Nd turns out he called and told his buddy that he had met the one. ❤️

I didn’t think I had a type back then, but my husband is my only type. Like if someone was to ask me I would confidently say, “my husband!” A man who loves me unconditionally. A man who loves me even with all my faults. A man who is an amazing dad; you can see it in my kids faces that they love him. A man who is so very handsome, and still is. A man who loves God; and chooses the right path for us, so that we can have a better relationship with God. My husband is my type. Love him! ❤️

Love you Mister!! 💕

Digital Art
By: emily2jane
08-30-26

Be Brave!

If your future self could send you one sentence, what do you hope it would say?

Be brave; be proud of who you are, and understand you don’t need other’s approval.

I know it’s a few sentences, but I wish I had knew this throughout my life.

Like in elementary school. When my first group of friends were the bullies of the school. I didn’t know that when I became their friends, because I was always swimming whenever there were social things to do.

But looking back now, I’m sure I knew subconsciously at the time. But I wasn’t confident enough in myself that I would find friends that would want me. I’m happy to say though that I stopped being their friends when they told me to bully someone else. Umm…no… I’m not one to make anyone an outsider; I like including everyone.

But I wish I had been braver to stand up and tell them they were wrong and that they should try and be better people. So first part: be brave.

In my teenage years, I was proud of who I was. I was a Christian trying to be strong in my faith, being around unbelievers. As a parent now, man that was rough. Trying to figure yourself out; and constantly being drowned by others trying to make you do wrong. It was tough. Really tough.

I wish I could have told myself to be strong. Be proud of who you are. Be proud to be a Christian. Be an example to those that might have needed one.

The other issue was that there was a girl who portrayed herself as a Christian. (And she might have been, but maybe was lost at the time) but her actions and lifestyle choices would suggest otherwise. And me wanting to be a proud Christian didn’t want to be put into the same category as her. Into the category of I’m using my faith to appear innocent and unattainable to guys, but date around. I didn’t want my faith to be tainted. But I wish I had been stronger. To stand tall and proud in my faith. No matter what. So second part: be proud.

My adult years. I wish I had known that I don’t need approval of others. Not always, but usually the people who need to anoint their approval on you, are not the people that you need in your life. That if you don’t do everything right and everything they say; that you will not be approved and you will probably be shunned.

I’ve had several people like this through my life. That I wish I could have told myself that you are great the way you are, and you don’t need their approval. I’ve recently come to grips with this, after my most recent encounter with someone. But now, my life is better! I don’t stress over acceptance. I don’t nitpick all my actions. I don’t be selective in my ideas. I am just me, and I’m assertive of who I am now. I’m pretty much at the point of, “this is me; if you don’t approve, then we will agree to disagree.” Life is only so long. I’m going to start filling my life with people who will help me thrive and grow. Especially in my faith. I want to surround myself with other Christians, and drench my kids in people who love the Lord. So that they grow up the way I hope they will.

That they will be brave. Be brave to do what is right, even if they are the only ones doing it.

Be proud. I want them to love the Lord. I want them to desire to know Him more. I hope they will be rich in God’s love. But also to be proud to be seen as a God fearing, loving person. That their actions show, even if they don’t speak.

And live knowing you don’t need and won’t get everyone’s approval. And that is perfectly fine. There really are only a few people in life you need to approve of you. God. As my kids keep telling me, they love Him most! My husband. I always want my husband’s approval. My mom. Yes, even if we don’t agree on some things I will still want my mom’s approval in my life. I ask her questions often, especially now as I’m diving into the Bible more. My kids. Not so much their approval, but I want them to respect me. That I can be a good role model for them. And maybe another is, if you’re lucky, your pastor. Some people can have a relationship with their pastor. Our church is probably too big. I’m just at least hoping to make some friends, who also love God.

I know being friends with non believers is good. It is good to be an example to them, to show that that everyone makes mistakes. Everyone struggles. Everyone sins. But the difference is we Christians get back up, ask for forgiveness, and try to live right again.

So after all that. I wish I could tell myself, Be brave! Be proud of who you are. And you don’t need other’s approval.

Even if I didn’t have this knowledge back then, I have kids now…

Again A Few…Or A Lot!

What’s a song lyric that has stuck with you forever?

“It is well with my soul,” -It Is Well With My Soul by Phillip Paul Bliss

“I’m done with the scrolling, Lord I’m looking up to you.” -Looking Up by Biblewithlife

“Stand by me, oh darlin darling!…STAND!…” -Stand By Me by Ben E King

“Victory in Jesus, my Savior forever!” -Victory In Jesus by Testament of Steel

“To the things I believe in; my faith, your love, our freedom.” -I Hold On by Dierks Bentley

“Jesus and my coffee, that’s all I need to start my day!” -Jesus and My Coffee By Solomon Ray

“Be brave, stand up for freedom, stand for truth. Don’t be afraid, you have a voice you can use,” Brave by Danny Gokey

“Crazy people, trust in Jesus!” -Crazy People by Casting Crowns

“Each time I find myself, flat in my face; I pick myself up, and get back in the race,” That’s Life by Frank Sinatra

“It’s not unusual to find out I’m in love with you.
Whoa-whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh
Whoa-whoa, oh-ohh
Whoa-whoa, oh-oh-oh-oh, whoa
Whoa-whoa, whoa-whoa.” -It’s Not Unusual by Tom Jones

“I know you don′t believe it, But I said it and I still mean it. When you heard what I told you, when you get worried I’ll be your soilder.” -Soilder by Gavin DeGraw

“Here’s my broken pieces, all my incompleteness. Take this shattered heart and make a work of art,” Stained Glass Window by Cochren & Co

“Ladies and Gentlemen, I’m doing this for my kids…DANCE MODE!” -Dance Mode by Bluey, Joff Bush

“There is power, in the name of Jesus!” There Is Power by Lincoln Brewster

“Gods not dead, he’s surely alive! He’s living on the inside, roaring like a lion.” God’s Not Dead by Newsboys

“She’s her daddy’s girl, her mamas world. She deserves respect, that’s what she’ll get, now anit it son.” -Cleaning This Gun by Rodney Atkins

I know there are more, but I think you get the jest of what means the most to me. Music is a big part of my life. And what I listen to matters to me. It needs to be a good message, but also a good message for my kids.