Category Archives: Reflections

Word Of The Day: Cozen 10-02-21

Synonyms: bamboozle, cheat, dupe, trick, etc.

Mommy!

No…

I wish to sleep.

Tre snuggles are sweet;

The kisses are too.

But still…

Rest calls my name.

Blankets, I hide,

Until she saw me.

She throws,

My warmth away!

No longer counting sheep.

Daddy has planned a treat.

Baby flew up the stairs;

Cozy bed calls to me.

Body relaxes and chills.

My tense flame;

Inside has subsided.

Sleep…

Bright flashing glow;

Stings my eyes.

Again baby is tugging;

Wailing and screaming.

Sleep was a lie;

I’ve been duped.

Her smile is gleaming.

All I can do,

Is sigh.

This actually happened to me yesterday morning. She woke up at 6:50am. Our sleep schedule is already wonky and I’ve been trying to slowly work my self back to a respectable wake up hour. We have gotten to 7:40am. Like clockwork. My body has been waking up exactly at 7:40.

So when she woke up at 6:50am…no amount of kisses were going to make me wake up.

But I think the worst part was, I fought her for maybe 15min before the hubby got up with her. Then I probably laid there for another 20min trying to fall asleep again.

But then like clockwork. 7:40am came by and she was blasting me with lights. It’s amazing when two year olds know. They just know….

Enjoy your Sunday! Fall is here! 🍂🍁

A card I drew for one of the hubby’s friend.

Fall is here!

Art Today #2

Well I think my days of painting by myself are gone. I have a little buddy now.

Our new set up!

No longer am I in the carport with a huge tall table…nope. Instead the table is maybe 2ft tall. And I now share my work space.

This was two days ago. I finally added the base red.

I still probably have about 3-4 days to go before I’m done.

Baby has no trouble painting. She keeps asking for more. Her first painting looks like a waterfall. We will be keeping that one. The others I might gesso over them again, so that I don’t run out.

Running out is a definite possibility. Haha 😂

❤️

I’m such a proud mama! I just desperately hope those sticky painted fingers don’t come near my painting…or my brother will be getting a surprise… (later she decided to finger paint)

This was yesterday.

It’s coming along. I decided to let the red dry more and do the buildings in the background.

But I sadly only had enough time to do one side. She got bored with painting and started to throw gravel…😑

Probably only 2 more days! I want to give this to my brother is September. Because it’s his Christmas present; and I don’t think I will see him after. At least not for a while.

Well enjoy your Monday! May it be productive! Hopefully mine is too!

Finally Home.

Our vacation was only four days long…but we did so much in those four days. Making me realize that the hubby and I are very boring people. We are home bodies.

We are exhausted. These last few days wore us out!

So because of all of this…this is my post. I will be just venting my exhaustion.

Also I realize all my posts lately have been poems. But poems are easy and not time consuming. I usually write it the night before, or if I wake up early in bed.

So pardon the repetitiveness. This is not becoming a poetry blog. It is still an everything blog.

Have a wonderful Friday! 🌷Fall is almost here! 🍁

Some photos from our trip.

We rented a house. Very comfy. We actually ended up bringing the mattress from the other room, placing it on the floor, and using it for baby.
I love tunnels. Baby does too! She puts her hands up like it was a rollercoaster.
I love it when the sun comes through the clouds! God is saying hello!
I stayed over here. 350ft drop…Heights…Nope! 😳
Water. As baby says…waaer
Big Waaer! Baby again ran straight for it; thankfully daddy caught her in time!
The dead trees mixed with the alive trees was trippy on the eyes. It was actually giving me a headache when I stared at it too long.
Beautiful mountains!

But still…I’m happy to be home.

Stay Awake!

There have been some strange noises at our house outside. And it seems to always happen when my husband is at work… scary right?

Well the hubby asked me to stay awake until he got home at 4am…I made it to 12:36am…😵‍💫

Because of that…this is my post for the day. Since I woke up late, and I didn’t have anything else prepared.

Stay Awake
emily2jane
08-13-21

Have a wonderful Friday! 🎉

A Piece

Colors bleed,

Mixing and twisting;

Becoming one.

Light defies darkness;

Casting aside,

Into the shadows,

While instead gleams thrive.

Someone is watching you;

Your eyes meet.

Dare to look away?

No…stay.

Question their story,

Push the boundaries;

Enter their fantasy.

I’ve been drawing. It seems like it has taken over my life once again. The poem is inspired by artwork. If you label yourself as an artist you understand, not being able to look away. Wanting to understand everything about the piece.

Recently I’ve decided to redraw my old drawings. As I started, I discovered that my old drawings are from 10 years ago…! (I never throw anything away…)

I now have 10 more years of experience, 10 more years of supplies, 10 more years of patience.

I’ll share the few I’ve done. It’s only been 2 days since I decided to try this…and remember I have a 2 year old. It’s been hard to stop my creative bug; and return back into a responsible mama…

09-03-11

I believe I found this off the internet. I have no recollection of where or by whom…but I am sure it did not look like this.

It’s not too bad. But seeing it makes me wonder why I didn’t measure out a square…or even attempt to make the border straight…

08-11-21

This is my impression of my impression from 10 years ago… I like this one better!

I went all spiffy on it and added the stars detail with paint… because I can. 😎

Next one…

09-05-11

This picture…I believe the stance of the girl was off the internet, but it was just a black line drawing of the girl. I did all the rest from my imagination.

I must say. I still like this one. It’s inspiring! Embrace life! Be free!

08-11-21

This one is still beautiful, but it seems more… graceful. I’m actually not completely done with this one. I still need to add some details.

In all of this, it has been fun to go back in time and see my old self in my art.

Maybe you should try this too! Dig through the drawers and find a drawing, painting, doodle; and redraw it. Maybe your skills have improved too!

Enjoy your Thursday! May it be filled with color!

Art Life Today!

Since I’ve moved my art stuff into the living room I’ve actually been drawing more! I didn’t realize how much I’ve missed it…

For Christmas this year I’ve planned to give people paintings. I’ve finished part of my mom’s and I’m in the process of my little brother’s.

I found out from my spies (mom and sister) that there is a painting that my brother keeps seeing at Home Depot. It’s a print of course, but I totally understand. It’s by Leonid Afremov. He is my favorite artist!! But the painting is not one of his typical ones; which gave me a challenge. I love challenges. 😎

So when you are painting someone’s art I believe in drawing it first. Because then you put your own spin on it. Why paint it exactly the same? That’s boring. It’s your impression of their work. So in a way…it becomes your own.

This was day one.

I decided to use my markers. I knew it was not going to give me the effect I wanted, but I was going to put in the effort and frame the end product.

I actually used the perspective training you get in fifth grade…it actually looks. This is the first time I’m mapped out my drawing. I usually just wing it!

Well…

Again I forgot to take pictures of the stages. But this is the finished product! I actually really like it! It is already framed and finished.

You don’t get that wet feeling with markers but it still works.

This composition was on accident.

I had the wood slices on my desk…I needed a propping type thing… I really liked how this picture looked so I’m sharing it. Haha 😂.

So now all I have to do is paint! I’m planning on using a canvas I found from the thrift store. Repurposing!! I’m using oil paints! And because of the smell; I’ll be doing this outside.

So excited!

I haven’t painted with oil paints in almost…4 years! 😳 I’ve missed the smell; I like the smell. It reminds me of my college days where I took a painting class twice a week; it was an 8 hour class…!

My set-up is on a folding, lifted table. Drop cloth for cleanliness! And I’m located under the carport. It is a prefect makeshift painting area!

Mapping out my canvas…

This is my first time doing this…I thought I should because there is a lot of perspective involved, and that is not my strong suit, with freehand.

Day one!

Again another first…I used to make my first layer just by just coating the canvas with the primary color…in this case it is white…so I found that ridiculous. So I did what my teachers were trying to tell me, and mapped out my painting with thin paint.

Weird…it actually works! 😅 This is going to save me so much paint! I was just stubborn before…

Well that as far as I go today! Don’t worry I will be better at taking pictures through my process.

Enjoy your Wednesday! We are off to story time at the library! 🌼

Change!

We decided to completely change the layout of our house… now three days ago…🥸

Haha! I mean completely! We moved our bedroom from the second floor to the basement. My art room from the basement to the living room. Eli’s bedroom from the second floor to the basement. The guest bedroom from the basement to the second floor.

The hubby’s “man cave” (more of a desk area) from the living room to the second floor; he now has an official man cave. He is super stoked!

All around it is now a better layout. We also get all the luxuries that we initially wanted. A bedroom with a bathroom attached. Laundry on the same floor as our bedrooms. And a man cave for the hubby.

But it meant carrying our king mattress down two floors and a queen mattress up two floors…😳 it was a lot! I’m amazed the hubby did not strangle me, as he tried to direct me and I was hearing the opposite. Haha!

I’m sore and exhausted. But I still have organizing to do! Which I like organizing! I would say it is a guilty pleasure. Especially now, since our house is completely flipped, I will be happy and content with all my new projects!!

Hope your life has not been completely flipped, but change it up and do something new today! It might just surprise you! 🎉

Change
emily2jane
08-05-21

Uhhhhh…haha…

I forgot to set an alarm today and I just woke up…😳 I’ll post tomorrow. I even had it all ready to be posted but it’s a little late today.

Enjoy the rest of your Thursday 🤩

(My cover photo is a picture I took from a movie about Nature.) Just wish my day would resemble this place. Calming, busy, beautiful, peaceful….☺️

Word Of The Day: Mulct 07-08-21

Synonyms: forfeit, defraud, trick, swindle, penalize, fine, deceive, punish, etc

Is this true?

How can it be?

Was I not the only one?

No; way more than two.

I was never set free,

Our life had just begun.

Did he ever try?

While I was flying high…

My love was deceived;

It was tricked, twisted,

Even swindled from my heart.

All was accepted and believed;

And yet,

It probably never existed.

I thought I was clever;

I thought I was smart.

Instead I’m left upset.

Was it not for forever?

I sit here,

My love slipping through my fingers,

The uncertainty fear,

Just lingers.

Everyone has experienced that relationship that you had full trust in and ended up being all a lie. I did.

My mom saw red flags, but I chose to believe it was right. Instead in the end, I was left questioning myself. At the time it hurt but looking back now, it was a great life lesson. Which for me, made me more picky and less gullible. Then I met the hubby! God made the hubby be the last one; so, that I knew he was perfectly made for me.

Those in the world who has experienced this. It is not the end. Everyone has that person. It will just take some time. I went through almost thirty, first dates…😳

Don’t give up. Just take it as a life lesson. Watch for the red flags. Also at least acknowledge, when you parent or friends around you makes a comment. 💙

Digital Art
by emily2jane
07-08-21

Decompressing.

It’s amazing how much traveling exhausts me. I’ll begin to feel it towards the end of my trip, but it will slam into me when I get home.

This is the reason I have been lazy with posting. I didn’t realize I would be so exhausted. I’m also exhausted due to other factors, but the biggest one…

Eli has been waking up at 4:00am the past two days. 😖 It is miserable. I fell back asleep yesterday around 8:00am and woke up at 10:30am…that was not a smart plan.

So today I just said, “Screw it!” and just decided to wake up. So hopefully this makes her nap today, but also that I will be exhausted enough to go to bed early. My sleeping schedule has been that of a teenager…like 12am-8am. I know it could be manageable, but not so much with a two year old with a current awful sleeping schedule.

But back to the main point. I will stop being lazy and start posting again. And I will begin the next part of my story!! Don’t worry. I won’t make it be like all my other stories that I just end.

Enjoy your Tuesday!

Digital Art
by emily2jane
06-29-21

Pretty much what I look like this morning…🤣