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Cheyenne.

Cheyenne has been amazing! I had an abrupt but slow morning; my guy left at 7:03am this morning to go for his ride along. He kissed me good bye and I slept until 8:30am. Understand that Wyoming is 1hr ahead. So to me I woke up at 7:30am…

Anyways I needed coffee 😬 and of course I could just drink the stuff provided in our room but I wanted to experience the small cafe shop. Looking at the weather for the day began at 21° and by the time I was leaving the hotel it was 26°. And it would continue to climb until 2pm.  So I put on 2 layers of pants, a sweater dress, scarf, fingerless gloves, a knitted hat and my inside lining of the snow jacket.

Since my guy is busy, I planned on meandering through town. I got my coffee at the Paramount Cafe. I stopped at a convience store for a book called, ‘Duty and Honor’. And as I wandered down a street, a cop car pulls over and stops next to the sidewalk. I was a bit nervous, wondering what I did wrong. There in the passenger seat sits my love, bright eyed and smiling. I said hi and hello to the fellow officer taking him around. Its nice to see him excited and happy. Please pray for him, his test is Tuesday. God willing he will pass or not pass. But praying always helps.

Some scenery pictures..

This is a house/art studio. The walls and shelves were filled with all types of art!!

This was just a cute home. I love this style of house.


Right outside of the hotel there is an old classic theater. This photo is taken in front of the thrift store( I talk about it later)

As my day continued, I had to wait until 10-11am for the small shops to open. I stopped in a clothing store that looked sweet from the outside, but once inside I discovered this is a new dangerous store. It’s called, ‘Just Dandy”, and everything in there is my style. Thankfully everything is expensive and not in my price range. Except then the lady tells me the clearance section is down stairs. I got a cute, but nice quality shirt for $17. It’s a tank top fringe beaded shirt. 

😳I tried mother…but I did look at prices first before trying on. This store is totally a you store as well…😎 

The lady there told me to check out this other place called, ‘Donna’s Boutique’ its more of a thrift store. It’s really cute and this store is more realistically priced. It reminded me of the old thrift store in Monrovia. Then around the corner was a nit-nack type of store. The lady was really nice and so I bought a coffee mug from her. 

I turned the corner and returned to the hotel. No more exploring for the day. I dropped off my jacket and headed towards the sitting area. I sat and read my book awhile. Then started this post. 

I hope you are enjoying hearing about Cheyenne. If not I’m enjoying writing about it. And this blog is for me and my thoughts!

Again love you mom!! ❤️ I am being good about not buying everything I see 😬

Cheyenne…what to expect…

January 11, 2017 4:00am-1:05pm
At 4:00am this morning I woke to a blaring noise! My alarm. I haven’t set one in so long…because normally I wake when he does. Alas it went off, breaking into my slumber, catapulting me into the cold morning bliss. Amazingly I felt awake. I got up, got dressed, got my phone charger, gathered everything and exited my cozy room. 

5 min later I needed coffee. I am one of those obsessed, irrational coffee drinks. And of course I stood hovering over the pot waiting for it to be done. It took about 8min, but I felt like 30min. Finally it finished!! So paired along with my coffee I had leftover BBQ chicken tenders. 😎

Nick wasn’t totally there…Zzzz he was rocking the standing sleep! He had some coffee but slim pickings of the meat. 

We had everything packed the night before and it all waited prepared and unstressed in the sitting room. 

It seemed too easy getting to the car, traveling to LAX, being processed through security, finally being seated on the plane. I guess my baby is as smooth and well prepared as he says…but I always and will always worry. Just for the backup, backup plan…like plan C…

Flying is like driving with my sister. There was a trip we took and part of the road was very bumpy. And with ever heap she sped up causing my stomach to feel like it was splashing and sloshing in slow motion. Almost like a lava lamp. But other than that it was smooth sailing…or rather flying.

Looking out the window was marvelous! I had never seen those colors in the sky. The range made me want to paint and explore the many shades of blues, purples, and grays.

The bathroom inside the plane was smaller than I expected…

Before experiencing the bathroom, of course,  my baby tells me of how a woman got stuck on the toilet…that totally had me all worried that if I sat funny I was going to be the butt to someone’s joke… But I had nothing to fret. I used it like a normal toilet, however I slightly hovered. Thank you so much to my brother who made me do so many squats! I know sorry…TMI

The landing was smooth and when we entered the Denver airport my stomach started talking; thankfully it was only speaking loud enough for me to hear. The BBQ food was amazing, and our waiter Xavier was great. It’s amazing when you have a great waiter, that they make the food that much better!

Now as we sit at the Denver airport our minds can relax and melt. I think Nick is going to try and get some slight slumber but I hardly expect him to catch any Zzz. The next plane is going to be smaller. Hopefully it’s not too bumpy or I will be wearing my food. 

I am not going to narrate my entire trip. But I feel inspired to write so that’s what I’m doing. 

Love you Mother❤️

Dreamland

I’m just sitting on the couch with my baby and we are doing completely different things. Im trying to stay focused on my phone while he laughs and giggles at the video on his phone. He is on one side and I’m on the other. However my feet have wedged themselves between his legs. His legs are at a angle that makes it difficult for me to go free.

As I sit here I ponder on when he will ask me that one question that will change everything! That one question I have been dreaming about. 💕 “When!?!”

But alas I sit here, a small distance from him, and I write this post. Sitting and waiting for that question…There as so many things I have to look forward too and so does he 😊 but until both “I dos,” are said, I sit here dreaming and waiting. 

Beats.

My heart flutters at you.

Must mean I’m not blue.

My heart flutters at fear.

Must mean I need to be clear.

My heart flutters after the cold breeze.

Must mean I’m about to sneeze.

My heart flutters at the baby’s smile.

Must mean I’ll stay and stare awhile.

My heart flutters in the dark.

Must mean I’m dreaming of sharks.

My heart flutters at art.

Must mean I’ve got a creative heart.

Newest Window

My newest window is for my nephew’s 9th birthday present. I told him to choose anything and he choose Pokemon! I have never dabbled in drawing Pokemon and this is new for me. 

At first I didn’t know how I felt about the design, or even just the start of how it looked.

This is about 1 1/2 hours into the painting…

But as I kept adding more and more colors my views changed…

About 30 min later

I wouldn’t ever think to do Pokemon but because the characters are so vibrant it is perfect for me and how I paint! One brush dipped into every color; painting with 20 colors simultaneously…not any one object is a single color.

So many colors!! 😊
How I left the painting today. To get this far it only took about 5 hours.

Family.

You are born into one,

You are raised by one.

You grow with one,

And you are loved by one.

-:-

You continue life with that one.

You strive and thrive with that one.

They see you fail and fall.

But they help you crawl and stand tall.

-:-

Now it’s new.

His family has accepted me.

But not only that,

His family, my family, are one.

I am happy with glee!! 💕

Happiness.

Happiness is a strange thing…it finds you at the strangest of times. The moment you give up and don’t expect much out of anything, life throws you a curve ball and it hits you smack dab in the face. 

But it doesn’t hurt. It hits you, to wake you up! To a new source of happiness God has sent you. You feel all warm and fuzzy for the first time in a while. You can’t control your smiles or laughter. You are looking at things from a new perspective; you only see the rare colors of which make each thing unique. My whole body shivers with excitement, but of course also the cold. 

Happiness…I have experienced happiness throughout my life like: family, birthdays, friends, job, memories, etc. But if you know what I mean then you probably know why my heart sounds like a drummer’s solo has quickened and gone berserk. 

Thank you God!! I had given up hope on finding this happiness in life. It’s true until you surrender all your control to Him, is when he throws that spinning curve ball in your direction. Life is good, and I am curious to where it will take me.

Proud.

This year of coaching has been the best so far. I have enjoyed my other years but this year I have felt complete and ready for anything. Except today is our first day of our last invitational this season, and once again I have butterflies in my stomach. I’m guess I am still always going to be nervous/excited for them. But also I guess it’s about me…because if they do well than I did my job right, but they don’t then what did I do wrong. But I think I will not feel that way today, because I believe in them. 

My go to thing to say is, “I am so proud of my swimmers!” I understand that this is bland to many people. But I have trouble expressing my feelings to others. In my mind this statement does not express my pride in them, but maybe if I say it enough I will someday feel complete. No matter how they do today…

I am truly one proud coach, and I have been blessed with my swimmers this year. I could not have asked for a better group of kids.

Wish us luck!
The photo is of part of the team, they are not all there but the photo expresses the future.

Art…

 

For some Wish was mereason I love drawing this girl.

I do see myself, but I also see someone I wish I was. Its like this girl is at war with herself, this one in particular…

She is confident but shy. She is simple but vibrant. She is peaceful, but containing her wild side.

I feel this way all the time. Wanting to be one thing but afraid what will be the repercussion. No matter how I portray myself I am terrified.

So to me this picture is saying, “Be Brave…” which is what I say every morning I begin my day.

(Also I wish my hair was this color…)