So I posted a chapter a while ago. And now as I’m looking it was deleted. Like the site deleted it. I have it saved elsewhere, but still weird. And it’s no longer in my drafts or in the trash. It just disappeared.
So I’ll post another chapter soon. But it takes time to get it off of my computer. Only a few minutes, but in mama land it seems more like 20!
Have a nice Tuesday!! 😊
This year, so far, has been full. As you may have noticed, I’ve only been posting chapters of my story. That’s only possible because I can write multiple chapters at once and post them accordingly.
But there are many changes this year. My daughter is three years old, and I cannot believe how time has passed. Her shoulder now fits under the lip of our dinning room table. She is expressing herself with words. She helps and takes care of me as I would to her. Now with her little brother on the way, I can’t help but remember when she was just a small little thing in my arms.
Next… my niece is starting to walk. She will be one year old next month. I just watched a video of a confident little girl strutting down the carpet. Last time I met her was a tiny peanut. No personality, just a little ball of love.
And next… my nephew is turning 15 this year. 15!!! My nephew who is now taller than me by about an inch. My nephew who I remember how he used to chase my dog, Sammy, around the backyard in his onesie. RIP Sammy ❤️ He is turning 15! That’s crazy to me.
The final one for now, but definitely not the last: I haven’t competed in swimming in almost 10 years. I still have dreams about racing, and I remember all the struggles and successes I had in my swimming career. But I haven’t done that in almost 10 years… that’s just amazes me. Especially since I did it for 14 years.
Which is why I am loving writing this story of a boy’s life of swimming. Not everything is from my past, but I’m able to get my desires out of my heart and into a narrative. It’s my way of continuing to live the swimming life without giving up what I have gained in these 10 years.
My husband. My daughter. My expected son. My home. My family.
As much as I love the idea of competing again. It can not measure up to the amount of love I have towards my splendor in life.
Year 2022, has been full; to the fullest. But I’m excited for the years to come. My days competing might be over, but I’m excited for this new adventure!
I don’t believe I will be posting anything until the new year. I’ve been so exhausted and busy, that I only have this small amount of time to say sorry to all of you.
I’m sorry that I am unable to post. My brain is also not functioning, since it is running a mile a minute.
Please forgive me. I’ll begin again next year.
Thank you. Enjoy your chilly Winter ❄️
.-. About 2 Months Later.-.
I finally went back on my blog and realized that I never actually posted this post. I wrote it back in December… I feel like such a failure.
We have finally finished moving. I’m still exhausted but I missed you all. Also I’ve missed writing my story. IT WILL CONTINUE!! Even if it’s just for me; I need to actually finish a story. Haha!
So I’ll be back on here. Maybe not as much as before, but slowly I’ll work my way back.
Stay warm this winter! 👋❄️
Life has been like the title of this post. I feel rushed in everything, but also seems to take all my effort.
Because of the holidays and big changes recently, I won’t be posting often. As you have probably notice these last few weeks. I’m just exhausted and I have no extra energy for my hobbies.
I’ll be finishing my nephew’s shirt, but I think that will be all.
I will post a chapter of my story here and there. I have several chapters already written. That’s the only thing that I seem to be able to focus on.
Please forgive me and have a thankful Thanksgiving! 🍁🍂
Nothing special. Just a photo I took the other day.
Synonyms: appease, pacify, make peace with, etc.
…
Living in darkness,
With no noticeable escape.
You live to appease,
Not provoke.
Constantly being cautious,
Never thriving.
Your limbs are bruised,
Your mind is suffocated,
You attempt to stay calm;
Praying for peace.
Darkness is submerging you,
No!
Fight to get the light.
Ask for help,
Speak the truth.
Life is better than pride.
…
When I heard the synonyms my initial thought was a brutal relationship.
I personally don’t have any experience. But I have watched one unfold. Sometimes it just takes a nudge from someone or the person personally to say enough is enough.
Asking for help is never a bad thing. You are actually the bravest person to me if you ask for help when you desperately need it. Life. Living. Thriving. Is more important than anything.
Stay strong. You are never alone. You always have God beside you. Everything is in his hands.
Which I’m in that place as of now; regarding wanting another baby. If I’m meant to have another one God will let it happen. But if not, maybe I’m meant to only have one.
Have a strong Saturday!
One of my favorite things…
The sounds they create,
Are soothing to the ear.
They sway with the wind,
Dancing to their own tune.
They flutter falling down,
Softly landing in their place.
If you run through them,
They crunch beneath your sole.
If you rake them,
They rustle across the grass.
When I see piles…
I want to submerge myself,
Deep under the leaves.
Leave them alone,
They make the ground golden.
…
I love it when the leaves change colors, but I love it more when they cover the ground.
It reminds me of my grandparents back brick patio. They had a ginkgo tree; that would let their leaves fall and it would create a “yellow brick road” at least that’s hat my grandma hold say.
One day I was at their house and I decided to do something nice and rake up all the leaves. I got them into a huge pile when my grandma came out. I expected a big thank you, but instead she said… “Oh…can you spread them back out everywhere. I love being surrounded by golden yellow.”
So now when I see piles of leaves I’m at war with myself. Either jump in the pile or leave them alone. Once the color is gone, sure rake them. But if you don’t mind leave them be and enjoy the crunch.
Sadly this tree died…it was slowly dying over the last few years. But then I got a message that the wind finally did the deed and uprooted the tree… RIP Tree 🧡
Finally the sickness is gone!
I spent yesterday drawing birthday/ holiday cards.
It was the first time in a long time that I got to relax…and do something I enjoy…
Now what I came up with…
He loves Minecraft. I got the inside scoop from my mom and his older brother. It’s not technically the same as the picture I used online…but I’m not going to sell it. It is just a gift. (Cannot sell things when they are not your work.)
Minecraft is hard to draw…at least for me. Since it’s not realistic.
Next was my mom. She asked me if I had any Thanksgiving/ Fall card she could use to send to family this year. I didn’t so I drew one. This was my inspiration…
I actually made this wreath myself…will never again, buy a holiday wreath.
The outcome…
Another original…I enjoy originals. Because they are mine!!
Next…
Another original. But this one has a twist. My daughter did the background paint. Whereas I, as you can probably guess, did the drawing. The drawing is inspired by one of my own photos.
I drew this one for my brother’s birthday. ❤️
And finally… just because I can…
I decided to draw another winter themed card. Just because I can, and now I can add it to my collection.
This one is again inspired by a photograph of mine. It’s not done yet. But this card only took me 30min. To this point.
Maybe sense I spent all day drawing, it came easier this time.
Once I finish this card, I’ll share it with you all.
Enjoy your Thursday! May it be filled with changing colors. 🍂
The day we thought she was better…
That night she relapsed.
No sleep for the mama.
Unhappy baby belly.
When will it end?
…
Not really a poem. But sure. Just my thoughts of this morning. But I’ve been super mama!
Trying to think of things I’ve accomplished…?
I’ve help my baby 24/7! I’ve not gotten sick! And I finished her costume!
It started off as just a long sleeved orange shirt. 8hrs later…😎 Sharpie pens are awesome!
Stay healthy! Have a nice Monday! ❤️
We decided to build the garage/ shed at the end of our carport. We always seem to do big projects before winter comes. Last time it was the concrete work and the carport installation.
The garage is 8ft x 10ft x 10ft. As the hubby was framing it, I was inside eating lunch with the baby. She was being a troublemaker.
It’s sweet when little kids want to help, but they make it more difficult. But as I’ve been told. It’s good to start them young; because then they will grow up helping.
It is going to be torture to smell this all day as we work.
I really didn’t help for this part. The hubby had his drawn plans, and just did his own thing. I just watched the baby. I felt really useless.
Can it be dinner time now? Nope. Still about 3 hrs to go.
I helped with the rafters. I handed them up to him, and he did all the hard stuff. I was pretty much just a pair of helping hands. Also maybe the mascot.
Meet got done around 5:30pm, but it still had to sit 30min before we could devour it! But back to the project…It gets dark around 6:45pm now. Because winter is coming.
The sweet thing decided to scout out daddy’s creation.
Sine she started dancing. I believe she approves.
I am sorry…I have no other pictures of the meat. I was too hungry to remember. But I can tell you…it was delicious!!
Day 2
Adding the black tar paper made the space feel bigger! Especially not in the sunshine.
This is going to make a huge improvement; also add value.
The space between the shed and garage is about 5ft. So with both overhang there is about 3ft of empty. We might stack wood here; under the garage overhang.
I feel like putting the roof on was where I was most helpful!! The hubby was on the roof. I had to grab a sheet of plywood and hand it up to the hubby. I also had to do this process for the metal paneling. I felt so helpful! And the hubby said I made it a lot easier. Since he didn’t have to go up and down constantly. 😎
Having the roof down and some of the plywood siding done makes it look complete!
So seriously we built a garage , 10 x 8 x 10!, in less than 24hrs. 😎 I feel quite accomplished. But I also have great pride in my hubby!! He did amazing!
Now you shouldn’t be surprised, but we were able to fill the entirety of the garage and there is no more space. Haha! But after I reorganize it, and the hubby makes the shelf and his work table, it will look better.
Finally after a few years we actually have some storage space/ shop on our property!
Have a productive Wednesday. With my back still a little tweaked i will be having a safe, cold Wednesday. ❄️
Unpacking leads to finding things from your past. I found a treasure… my creative writing/ poetry binder from over ten years ago. I was super creative in 2010. I had more free time in the past.
But here is the first poem I read.
…
Whom?
Whom…
Do I chase?
Down
The far
Pool.
Me.
Myself.
The girl
Doing it
Perfect
And precise.
She starts out
Ahead.
But I beat her
Dead.
That girl
Who begins
And I end.
…
This poem cracks me up! I wrote it October 08, 2010. I wonder who my competitor was; that I decided to write a poem based on them. I have no idea…
As I wrote that, I thought it could be me. I used to have that mindset. That I was the best and racing myself was the only opponent better than me. Oh the confidence…
I’m enjoying reading things from my past. I am now remembering that I went through a phase of writing sad poetry. Hopefully reading my old poetry will help spark up my old creativity once again. I’ve been in somewhat of a rut lately.
Maybe due to the fact that the hubby and I built a garage/ shed in less than 24 hours these last two days. I was the pair of helping hands to my master builder husband.
Maybe I’ll share that experience next blog.
But anyways…enjoy the weekend! Party time!! For all you young people or people young at heart! Instead, I will be enjoying time at home. It’s supposed to rain today! A nice Saturday at home. Just what I need! 🌧
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