Category Archives: Reflections

Kiss.

I think the sweetest thing in the world… Is getting a kiss from your baby. When they don’t know how to give you a smooch and they just open up their mouth and place their whole everything on your cheek… and they give a soft giggle at the same time; it is one of the sweetest things in the world.

And when you return the kiss they laugh and giggle. That small giggle makes you feel so happy and warm.

As I’m writing this she’s talking along with me. She wants to help as mommy writes.

Even if it’s a thought of a kiss or a real one give it to someone you love today.💕

So you ever feel like your life stopped before it began. It’s not like I gave up or anything, but it seems like I’m in a rut.

Which when I say it (or typed it) it sounds awful because I’m a mama now. I have a wonderful 8 month old baby and I am super happy. She is now my everything.

I just feel like I missed out on a lot of things. Like college, I’ve never wanted to go to college before, but recently I’ve been regretting it. The social aspect of college, having only 2 life long friends you never see is difficult…

But again I love being a mama.

I guess a lot of it is, is that I gave up a lot of hobbies. I don’t do anything anymore. I don’t draw, paint, sew, dance, socialize…

Which again, I know, when you become a mama lots of things change, but I miss those activities.

As soon as my sleeping schedule is normal I will get back into drawing, but like today, my baby is wide awake at 2:00am; so it might be awhile.

I guess for me, I shouldn’t feel like I do, but I do. I’m in a rut and I don’t see me changing anytime soon.

But I love my baby dearly. She is my sweet thing. And she knows it ❤️

My sweet thing at 3:03 am

Self conscious…

Being called out for one of your past selfs actions, can hit you and make you feel so self conscious. It’s amazing I thought as I grew up I wouldn’t get embarrassed as much…mostly because having a baby changes you.

But still having someone you love make-fun of something you did before, makes your heart hurt. I know it wasn’t on purpose and the person meant to be funny but I’ve always been a self conscious person. I’m not spontaneous, I can’t be…especially now as the thing I was teased about was something I did spontaneously. It makes you think back through your life and question everything else.

Writing helps me deal with my problems or feelings, and move past them. It’s not a big thing it’s just something small…but it still gets me.

So I guess…don’t be afraid to be spontaneous. It terrifies me, but I’ll teach my daughter to be…she’ll learn the awesomeness of planning, but I hope she will not be as self conscious…being self conscious 90% of the time is not the greatest way to live. But I make do, because that’s how I am and I want to be just me.

Happy Tuesday, just because every day should be a happy day…😊

My cover photo ‘Facebook picture’ didn’t have someone’s name, just something I found.

Visiting home.

It’s strange, that I live in another state now but that I still consider my mom’s house home…it’s a different kind of home. It has so many memories and my family is there. No matter what was going on we would all meet at mama’s and hang out. ❤️ I miss that so much!!

But we are on our way to see my family!! I’m so excited!!

But I’m also excited for my siblings to meet my daughter! She is 11 weeks today…and we are traveling south. The baby is behaving really well, we have a very well behaved baby. 😎

They will finally get to determined whether she is or not. I’m excited for my nephews to meet her. Especially the youngest because now there is a little person smaller than him.

Stopping in Utah, then we are coming home tomorrow!❤️

Oh Baby…

Having a baby has been very interesting. I love her deeply, the sweet little giggles she does are priceless. I love her kisses when she gives me them on my cheek. I love it when she smiles so much that it takes up half of her face. She such a sweet sweet.❤️

But I do miss my sleep. Which makes me think of this topic…There of been many ways to lose weight…

Some people of use the machines that shake you until all your chub is confined into your stomach. There are now things that can freeze your chub so that it shrinks your stomach. I think that getting your tummy kicked 100 times throughout the night by tiny baby feet should also help get rid of your tummy chub. I think it’s only fair…

Even still I love her. She makes my night interesting. Like right now we are wide-awake at 10:46 PM and I don’t tthink we’ll be going to sleep for probably a couple more hours. But again she is my sweet sweet. ❤️

Oh no she spitting up…

Up In A Tree

Once there was a little family that lived in a marvelous tree. The tree grew as tall as the mountains, or so it would seem.

The family was small but mighty; as Ma and Pa watched their baby grow and grow. The child would run up the trunk and down the branches. Jumping from leaf to other leaves.

One day the family noticed a new sort of leaf growing on their beloved home branch. It was round and was a sunset color. It was so still; so much so that they assumed it must not be alive. Pa thought it looked like a glorious new home for his family.

They journeyed up the branch to the strange new form. Pa tapped it, shook it, screamed and yelled at it; but there was no response. So he poked it with a stick and a squirt of juice flew out at him in the eye. Pa yelped and hid behind Ma. He thought he had injured it and it would retaliate and attack him.

Ma rolled her eyes and tasted the juice that now trickled down Pa’s face. Ma’s face radiated with happiness and delight. Pa, Ma, and child went closer to the form and put their mouths into the punctured opening. Sweet delicious juice flowed into their mouths. So all three took a side and ate their way into their new home.

The sweet juice took over their minds and bodies and made them extremely tired. Pa, Ma, and child all fell asleep in their nestled new home. Sweet, sweet slumber.

Well of course I had no knowledge of this happy little family of worms living in an apple, I so desired when I went outside. I looked up in our glorious tree and saw a delicious ripe apple waiting for me. I climbed the great ladder and I plucked it from the branch. I also bragged to my husband about finding it and not sharing. I dashed inside to wash and enjoy my greatest discovery.

Instead I cut through the apple and there sat three separate worms. Two long ones and a little baby one. Thankfully I didn’t cut through one of them or I would have given up apples for a while. Instead of just throwing the apple out, I dug the worms out of the apple and put them in our front yard where we need more worms. I also had to go outside and tell my husband what had happened, he of course laughed.

Hopefully today I can find an apple on the tree and no worms will be living inside. This time I’ll share with the husband because maybe my luck will be better.

Enjoy your weekend!! ❤️ Maybe have an apple.

Family❤️

Since my hubby works long hours also along with a crazy schedule; I was getting lonely. I am a people person to a point. I don’t like quiet. I will contradict that statement: I like alone time but only so much.

So we decided to add to the family. Even though we have our first on the way; I needed some company sooner. We got two.

Her name is Pickles. She was super shy when we got her. She came from an animal shelter. It was a happy place for an energetic dog but not a shy one. She has grown to love us these past seven days. She now wants all the attention and she is a little bit of a trouble maker. The only sound she has made is small whimpers when she needs to go to the bathroom or some barking when she is defending her brother.

His name is Moose. He was also super shy. He is eight weeks old. He seems like he has never had a loving home. So we want to give him one; ten times over.

After we got them I was having severe allergies. I knew it was not because of them because it was a different allergy.

So it turns out down by the Yellowstone river there are hundreds of cotton wood trees. I have discovered I am super allergic to cotton trees blooming. It has passed though. Thankfully I moved up after the bloom; however, now I know May/ June will be difficult. The small town feel out ways the other difficulties we might face.

Have a wonderful Tuesday.

(I had to check the calendar because here the days quickly morph into each other.)

❤️