Reflections

Looking Back

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Looking back through old photos on Facebook, I came across one from 11 years ago. It’s amazing how much time has gone by and How much I’ve changed since then. Funny as it may be I recognized my ex boyfriend. The ex-boyfriend that a child should never have when they’re 15-16. (Just my opinion) But I had one and looking back at it it was terrible idea and a great learning experience as well.

It’s amazing how looking back at my younger years I remember all the hardships I went through as a teenager, but also as all the great times I had.

In regards to the ex-boyfriend… This doesn’t need to be said but it’s what I’m thinking about. And I have a daughter now so my mind thinks of the future for her. My advice to her in the future would be…

If you like someone and they don’t know you exist it’s OK. Just live out your teenager years having a crush on that person and don’t need someone else. One of my friends convinced me that my crush would never know and that I should date this other guy because we would look good together. I was young and naïve and didn’t really know what I was doing. Also when you are young and wanting to experience love you just make stupid mistakes.

Another thing you don’t think about when we were young, don’t date someone who you are on a competitive team with. Because I didn’t know it was possible…but I wanted to break up with him probably two months before I actually did. I told my coach that things weren’t working out and I was going to end it with him. (coach always knew everything anyways so we always just told her everything). But in response coach told me, “hold off until after the season is over so he doesn’t compete terrible.” Never realized that winning trumped my happiness. I guess It did.

I guess my advice to my daughter would be keep that crush and just stick with that. If you never become something it’s fine. Crushing on someone is more fun than dating at that age anyways. Unless you find that person you’ve been best friends with since forever and you guys stick together and then end up getting married, but that’s one in a million… Just wait until you’re older to date. You were right mother! The other is don’t date someone you compete with because your coach might choose winning over you.

I guess the last thing would be don’t hold onto the crush for forever. When you both are leaving and going off and starting your life just confidently go up to that person and say, “ I liked you. You were a great crush to have through my teenage years. But that’s all it was was a crush. Thank you for being that for me. Have a great life.” And then just walk away.

Because if you don’t, it kind of is just there forever. If you don’t give your crush closure it just lingers. Not saying I’m crushing or anything, It’s just a weird feeling. I guess one sided crushes never really go away until you speak them out. To summarize: keep the crush and just do that, until one day you guys are both leaving going separate ways, just tell him and move on.

Cover photo: by emily2jane

Reflections

It seemed weird this year…

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It’s been almost 3 years…but this year making my birthday cake felt weird. It shouldn’t but it did. I got to zoom my family which was nice but making the cake, putting the candles in, and lighting them this year felt strange.

I don’t know if it’s because I’m a Mama now and my birthday isn’t as important as before when I didn’t have a baby…

It just felt strange this year.

Also my sisters cakes are to die for!! 😍

Reflections

Breathing.

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Breathing is a simple thing.

To most people this statement would seem funny. Or might ask, “What’s the need to ask this simple question?”

Okay, then breathing in physical exercise. Whenever you exercise you need to focus on your breathing. I’ve been doing an online gym app and constantly the instructors are saying, “remember to breath. If your not breathing I don’t know how you are doing it.” Again this seems to be knowledge that everyone knows.

But here is how this simple phrase becomes tricky. I constantly catch myself holding my breath. Doing abs, running, cardio, even stretching. When I think back to my younger years it has always been the same.

As some of you know I was a competitive swimmer for about 15 years. Swimming is a sport that defies all other instructors rules about breathing. Our phrase we always said was, “Breathing is overrated.”

So here I am trying to exercise and better myself and I can’t break the no breathing habit while exercising. I used to be able to streamline underwater for both 50 yards and 50 meters without breathing. Also sprinting those distances for competitive swimming events with only one breath.

I finished my exercise session for the day and I was dying. Not because of being inflexible, not because I am sadly out of shape, just because I caught myself several times holding my breath.

Since I am no longer a swimmer I need to change my ways and become a normal human being. I’ll check back with you all in a few years; either I will be a better breather or I will be still stuck with my habit.

So all I can say is breathe when the teachers say to. But if you were a swimmer, don’t worry you are not alone.

A very quick drawing…🤓
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Listening and Talking.

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Both are important. Don’t let it build up inside you about to explode. Think before you talk. Listen to what you are spewing. Listen to the responses. Think before responding…(repeat)

Again. And again. And again.

It’s difficult, but needed, to help mend broken things. Hope your Wednesday was better than mine. At least it’s now Thursday…new day, new beginning.

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Life as a Mama #4

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I have been blessed in the past. I have always gotten sick before or after the baby got sick. I didn’t think much of it it, but now I realize it was a blessing. Because now we are both sick with a terrible cold. I wish my mama was up here to take care of me and my baby. Because sometimes I just want to crawl into a hole and hide, but I can’t do that; especially since while she is sick she wants mommy all the time.

So I guess this sickness is making me miss my mama more than usual. Love you mama ❤️

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Life As A Mama #3

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Bedtime is still a challenge. What entails for getting in bed: clean up the place area, do a little bit of dancing to get our wiggles out, shower, brush our teeth, and then go upstairs. By that time Mama is tired and is ready to go to sleep; however, baby is wide awake and full of energy. So the pre-bedtime consist of playing with toys until she is ready for the bedtime ‘food’.

So I sit here waiting for my baby to get tired enough for bedtime. So all those moms whose days are long and hard; just think I’m still awake with a happy baby and I probably won’t be going to bed for another hour or two. Be happy hour child has a set bedtime. 😊

But I will say I get 8 to 10 hours of sleep. So I am doing better than those moms with the babies who don’t sleep through the night.

Unless she is sick she has been sleeping through the night since she was two months old. Occasionally I don’t get all those hours of sleep, but a majority of the time I still get a decent eight hours straight sleep.

I guess this post is for all the moms out there. We are all vary but we all have the wonderful job of raising our little ones. They’re so sweet! And my baby knows it!

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Life As a Mama #2

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I made a dumb deal with my husband when the baby was born…I would change all the diapers but he has to deal with any dead animals, spiders, etc. I thought it was a great deal in the beginning but now my life is forever diaper based. 😓

He occasionally does it…begrudgingly, but he does.

I tried to make this task not so dreary; I put the trash can away from my changing station. Mostly I did that to keep the trash can away from my smart cookie, but I try and make the diapers in with a toss. However I’m realizing that if I miss I need to walk over and throw it away quickly, because I’ve caught my sneaky thing trying to grab them through the gate.🤢 Not something a baby should play with.

It used to be basketball…swish, swish. Now it’s diapers…smelly, smelly.

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Our munch.

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Well she is getting so big. My days are packed full. I thankfully get me time here and there, but it always seems like it’s not enough. I guess that’s what happens when you begin parenthood.

However, all of her new portions in her personality makes it all worth it.

She now does that cute bouncing dance; the one that all babies seem to do. She loves Disney music, old rock and roll, and country. Occasionally we will play a techno song and she just runs around the room like she got a burst of energy.

She recognizes certain animals; she is definitely a dog person. Whenever a commercial with dogs comes on she points and bounces with all her giggles. We purposely play YouTube videos of dogs; I think that is her favorite thing to watch.

She talks a bit more. She says dada more than mama, she usually just yells at me. It’s crazy as a mama I can understand her even though she can’t talk; however, she has said yes occasionally. Usually when I ask her if she is hungry or if she wants to FaceTime grandma. Calling grandma is one of her favorite things to do. 💕

Last new thing is we have discovered she has just as much patience as my husband does. 😂 I was hoping she would get both of our amounts of patience and have double it, but no, she is quick tempered at this age. I understand she gets frustrated because she knows how to do something but can’t make her body do what she is thinking.

We have a smart cookie. She will sit and figure something out and once she has she masters it. Like escaping…she is just like me in this habit.

Sending love to my mama ❤️ you had me, and now I have her. I see so much of me in her. She is a troublemaker.

Lots of love 💕

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Concrete Project.

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It’s a great feeling when someone doubts you, and you prove them wrong exponentially.

We had a project of doing our concrete patio slab. And originally my husband was going to do it himself, but someone said we should have a team of five guys helping…so of course five guys turned into me with the baby on my chest.

And you must know I have never done concrete work before. He woke me up 20min before the truck was showing up saying he is going to need some help.

But the truck driver also was surprised that my husband didn’t have extra help, and was more surprised when I was there to help with a baby strapped to my front. The man also said that it would be an all day project.

However, much to his dismay, we got it all spread out in one hour. The truck got there at 9:30 and left at 11:00. Haha ‘all day project’ nope.

So I guess my husband, me and the baby is enough to do 450 sq feet. I felt super spiffy.

So now that man can go back to his business astonished; and if he ever sees workers slacking off he can tell them about the time he saw a husband and his wife, with the baby, do a patio slab themselves.

Mwahahahahah!!!

The driveway is the next project, and that will be easier. 😎