Have a wonderful Easter Sunday!!
No matter how you spend it. With family, with friends, with loved ones.
He is risen! He is risen indeed! đĽ°

â¤ď¸
Have a wonderful Easter Sunday!!
No matter how you spend it. With family, with friends, with loved ones.
He is risen! He is risen indeed! đĽ°
â¤ď¸
Just sending a heart…because it seems like something someone might need right now.
â¤ď¸
I think the sweetest thing in the world⌠Is getting a kiss from your baby. When they don’t know how to give you a smooch and they just open up their mouth and place their whole everything on your cheek… and they give a soft giggle at the same time; it is one of the sweetest things in the world.
And when you return the kiss they laugh and giggle. That small giggle makes you feel so happy and warm.
As I’m writing this she’s talking along with me. She wants to help as mommy writes.
Even if it’s a thought of a kiss or a real one give it to someone you love today.đ
âLove is a complicated thingââŚthatâs what most people say.
I donât; fake love, forced love, or even a wanted love that God indicates itâs not the right time, of course, are complicated. Believing that love is there when itâs blatantly not, is always complicated. Or forced loveâŚforced love is almost exactly like fake love but it feels worse. Because if it has to be forced, then occasionally the other person is not faithful, or they are manipulating you for their own gain. But the one that got me countless times was the wanted loveâŚwanting, but God implying it was not the one for you or that it is not the time. Wanting something so badly and constantly being shut down or cut off, also, if you ignore the signs given to you, you result to either fake or forced.
But donât fret; there are many roosters in the world, but to find one that is loyal you must have outside help. For me when the right rooster came along it was easy; we were perfect. It had its ups and downs but my rooster stayed with me through the toughest of times. God helped me find my rooster and without His help, I was only finding fake or manipulating ones.
Now my rooster and I have been married almost 6 months, and we are thinking about having some miniature ones. It wonât be until we are a little more settled, but soon, we will have baby chickens or roosters running around.â¤ď¸
I know this post is a little odd, but I wanted to tie in the daily prompt to my daily drawingsâŚI wonât do this every day, but I thought it would be fun for a while.
Attempting to begin painting again. Have to find time around my full time job and my hubby â¤ď¸ Iâll weasel it into my weekends somehow. Just the first three steps, but no where near being done…
âWill she ever wake up?â a figure uncurled from a huge lounge chair in the corner.
âI donât know, she might eventually but for the time being we must wait,â the doc said with no emotion or concern.
No one really cares if she does or not. Everyone is just reeling in their paycheck after paycheck. I know Iâm only seventeen but I know that as long as she stays immobilized and unconscious they all continue to get money. That doctor is just one of those people, but her family has paid him handsomely over the years for her care, so he wouldnât say no to an easy mark like this.
âYou donât have to stay in here Daniel, I will sit with her if you want to go outside for a while,â the doc said as he begun to drag a chair towards her bed.
âBACK OFF! You donât care about her. Get out!â Iâm young but not weak. I will defend her.
âOkay, okay, and you are wrong Daniel, I do care.â He gazed at her once again before leaving the room.
The room was quiet now, leaving the only sound to be echoed down the hall as the doc slipped away. âHe doesnât care, not like I do.â I creep towards her as she lay softly breathing in pattern to the light breeze. Everyone says Iâm foolish to give her too much hope; that I should be outside enjoying the life I have. âHow can I enjoy it, if she is not here?â
âŚ
              The day continued into night, and continued into days. The household continued to bring food, change her sheets, dust the room, and snicker to themselves about when the she will depart.
No one truly cares for her; no one here wants her to survive, besides me. She is the reason my heart still beats; I wish I could make hers jumpstart.
âŚ
              Months passed and still no change, the doc has given up hope. He just wants a higher pay grade before he continues to, âwaste his timeâ his words, on someone who might never awake from their comma. âIâm sorry son, but I think we should just call it; she hasnât made change these last eight months, itâs cruel to leave her in this state.â
âYou touch her and you will die. I know you are only here for the money, you donât care for her. You just want to fill your pockets before she goes. NO ONE CARES! Leave us!â I lost it, as his hand reached for the plug. I remember lunging and squirming with the doc; I know my fists made contact with his jaw more than once. I remember several voices, limbs, and bodies; then all went black.
âŚ8 years laterâŚ
              My life changed after that day. I guess I made real damage on the docâs face because he pressed charges. I donât know how, but I was sent to jail for the night; I was seventeen and they thought I deserved it I guess, because I wouldnât let her go. I was released eventually; I guess they worried that my revenge for blood would cause me to hunt down and murder the man that put me here. But what was the point, my reason for breathing was gone. Since she was denied the ability to breathe, why should I waste my breath on worthless scum?
After that day, I swore I would fight for people who couldnât fight for themselves. Of course I was a teenager and faced various fears and horrors but I kept protecting the âlittler guyâ. Which caused me to land in prison occasionally, but I couldnât stand to see people treating loved ones so harshly. You should care and protect them, because they might be taken from you.
After the last time in the tank I decided enough was enough; I couldnât be in prison for another moment. No matter the actions of people in the world, I canât experience the brutal, harsh, environment as jail again; no one had my back, no one protected me from others, no one cared enough to sacrifice themselves for me like I had done.
I moved upstate away from everyone. I didnât care if I never saw a familiar face again. A hermitâs life is the best way of life. I got a small putter job at a large estate as a gardener, good money and peaceful work. I became one of the plants; something alive but just puttering around waiting to be done.
âŚ
       You know when you can feel someone watching you, but every time you turn there is no one; that is when you know you have been alone to long.
âŚ
      âWhat are you doing?â a voice said.
The voice startled me, and I jutted backwards and stepped in hole as I tumbled backwards. âCrap!â Looking up I stare into the eyes of a child, a small girl. âWhat are you doing sneaking up on people?â
âSorry, Iâve been watching you, and I was just curious what you planned to do with the rose bush?â
The small face glowed with laughter and excitement. I havenât seen a child smile in many years. âYou shouldnât sneak on people,â or stock people I mumbled low enough she wouldnât hear. âWhat do you care what Iâm doing?â
âNo reason, you just moved it there, then there, then there, thenâŚâ she continued on and on pointing at the various spots I did indeed move it.
âI donât know, it just isnât thriving as it should be.â
A small giggle escaped her mouth, âIt wonât unless you give it a chance.â
âWhatâŚâ but the small figure ran up the driveway and waved good bye. âStrangeâŚoh crap my ankleâŚâ
âŚ
              Itâs odd but I waited all morning for the small figure to return. I wanted to complain to her, about her being the cause for my ankle swelling. But she didnât appear and there was no lingering feeling of being watched. Strange, her being the first person I have felt comfortable with since that day so long agoâŚ
âŚ
      âWhat ya up to now?â a girlish squeal came from behind the tree.
At least this time I was clipping the branches of a different tree, âIâm just puttering along. My supervisor said to just do a little of this and a little of thatâŚnothing too exciting. What are you up to?â
She popped out from the tree, skirted around the trunks, to my side, âIâm just out and about. Iâm supposed to soak up as much sun and fresh air as I can before returning home, or at least that is what Iâm told. Can I help?â
About to tell her no, or I work alone; however instead, I looked into her excited but longing face; I understood the feeling, âSure, take the cut-off branches and throw them in the waste, but first go get some gloves.â
âOkay!â she scurried off to find some, then began to help me. It was nice to have help, but mostly the company was very new.
Not one peep of complaint came from her all morning, but I could see the strain on her face. I called her over to take a break and sat on the tailgate of my truck swigging back a coke enjoying the sweet summer air. âSo do I get to know your name or what?â I asked her as she finished her last sip, âand also your age?â
âGabriella and 9 ½, yours?â
âDaniel, and ummâŚ.blmfpfâ
âHuh?â
âOh alright, 25.â And of course she giggledâŚ
âŚ
       Again sitting in silence we just watched the leaves float through the air, and the birds soaring a hovering through the tall pines. âShould you be getting back home? Someone will be worried,â as I lifted her to the ground and closed the tailgate.
âMaybe, but Iâve never been missed. I just amâŚâ a flicker of sadness trickled through her face, but disappeared as soon as it appeared.
âDo you want a lift? Iâm driving that way anyways, Iâm done for the day.â
âSure. Your old body canât take any moreâŚâ she roared with laughter.
âIâm not old, little missy, I am at my prime age; thank you very much.â Attempting to tickle her, but instead opening the passenger door.
She hopped up and yanked the door shut as well as she could. I sunk into my seat and we were off. Cruising down the road she stuck head out the window letting her flop of hair twist and fly about. To be young and carefree, I havenât felt that way since I was her age. Her directions were not so much as directions as sudden go this way and that way, but we were driving for a while before she yelled, âTurn!â
Sharpest turn I have ever taken, âLittle warning next time please.â
There on a small hill sat a small house. It looked familiar, like evoking a memory from a dream.
âThank you mister, see you tomorrow,â she clambered out of the truck and started toward the house. I just watched her go, and then the front door openedâŚHer…
The thought of moving is exciting and thrilling. It gets my mind chasing and springing to life! What will my neighbors be like? How will the neighborhood fair, to right now? When will I start having kiddos!?!đ Will my home be as colorful as I imagine? Will the sky be as beautiful or more so?
On the other hand, moving also means leaving my family behind. They can always come visit, they can always come and see me. But it won’t be often. I won’t see my mom, sister, and brother everyday at work. There won’t be birthday parties once a month (pretty much). Holidays will be hard….and I will miss them terribly.
They have always been there and I have missed the occasional crazy chime-in voice when I say something clever. My husband I do, do it often but it’s different when there are various voices. I’ll miss the moments when I want a mama hug, being able to drive to her house and steal one. I’ll miss seeing my nephews grow up into who they will be.
So much sadness comes up when I think about moving, but also excitement…
So I drew this picture because it’s beautiful to me. And I don’t know if I’m in the house that is colorful or if I’m spying on the house that is beautiful.
Stare accordingly without emotion,
Stand ridged without exuding feelings,
Sit proper without releasing breaths.
Always on your best behavior,
Never getting to rest.
Never wearing your true self nature.
Pampered is exasperation,
Wrapped in wealth,
While killing God’s creation,
Of life’s true uniqueness,
Creativity and Beauty,
In one’s personality.
Haven’t had time to write new posts, because of work, school, and planning a wedding. But I have been able to edit photos and make new art, eventually I will paint these. All photos taken by emily2jane and edited by emily2jane.
I’m never not doing art. Some way or another I have art in my life. đ
Our journey begins…we are off to celebrate the marriage of my fiancĂŠ’ sister. We land in Boston and then his dad will come get us, from Portland.
I’m excited to continue my adventures of travel. But I’m super excited to continue to travel with the love of my life! đ
More pictures to come đ