Category Archives: Reflections

Listening and Talking.

Both are important. Don’t let it build up inside you about to explode. Think before you talk. Listen to what you are spewing. Listen to the responses. Think before responding…(repeat)

Again. And again. And again.

It’s difficult, but needed, to help mend broken things. Hope your Wednesday was better than mine. At least it’s now Thursday…new day, new beginning.

Life as a Mama #4

I have been blessed in the past. I have always gotten sick before or after the baby got sick. I didn’t think much of it it, but now I realize it was a blessing. Because now we are both sick with a terrible cold. I wish my mama was up here to take care of me and my baby. Because sometimes I just want to crawl into a hole and hide, but I can’t do that; especially since while she is sick she wants mommy all the time.

So I guess this sickness is making me miss my mama more than usual. Love you mama ❤️

Life As A Mama #3

Bedtime is still a challenge. What entails for getting in bed: clean up the place area, do a little bit of dancing to get our wiggles out, shower, brush our teeth, and then go upstairs. By that time Mama is tired and is ready to go to sleep; however, baby is wide awake and full of energy. So the pre-bedtime consist of playing with toys until she is ready for the bedtime ‘food’.

So I sit here waiting for my baby to get tired enough for bedtime. So all those moms whose days are long and hard; just think I’m still awake with a happy baby and I probably won’t be going to bed for another hour or two. Be happy hour child has a set bedtime. 😊

But I will say I get 8 to 10 hours of sleep. So I am doing better than those moms with the babies who don’t sleep through the night.

Unless she is sick she has been sleeping through the night since she was two months old. Occasionally I don’t get all those hours of sleep, but a majority of the time I still get a decent eight hours straight sleep.

I guess this post is for all the moms out there. We are all vary but we all have the wonderful job of raising our little ones. They’re so sweet! And my baby knows it!

Life As a Mama #2

I made a dumb deal with my husband when the baby was born…I would change all the diapers but he has to deal with any dead animals, spiders, etc. I thought it was a great deal in the beginning but now my life is forever diaper based. 😓

He occasionally does it…begrudgingly, but he does.

I tried to make this task not so dreary; I put the trash can away from my changing station. Mostly I did that to keep the trash can away from my smart cookie, but I try and make the diapers in with a toss. However I’m realizing that if I miss I need to walk over and throw it away quickly, because I’ve caught my sneaky thing trying to grab them through the gate.🤢 Not something a baby should play with.

It used to be basketball…swish, swish. Now it’s diapers…smelly, smelly.

Our munch.

Well she is getting so big. My days are packed full. I thankfully get me time here and there, but it always seems like it’s not enough. I guess that’s what happens when you begin parenthood.

However, all of her new portions in her personality makes it all worth it.

She now does that cute bouncing dance; the one that all babies seem to do. She loves Disney music, old rock and roll, and country. Occasionally we will play a techno song and she just runs around the room like she got a burst of energy.

She recognizes certain animals; she is definitely a dog person. Whenever a commercial with dogs comes on she points and bounces with all her giggles. We purposely play YouTube videos of dogs; I think that is her favorite thing to watch.

She talks a bit more. She says dada more than mama, she usually just yells at me. It’s crazy as a mama I can understand her even though she can’t talk; however, she has said yes occasionally. Usually when I ask her if she is hungry or if she wants to FaceTime grandma. Calling grandma is one of her favorite things to do. 💕

Last new thing is we have discovered she has just as much patience as my husband does. 😂 I was hoping she would get both of our amounts of patience and have double it, but no, she is quick tempered at this age. I understand she gets frustrated because she knows how to do something but can’t make her body do what she is thinking.

We have a smart cookie. She will sit and figure something out and once she has she masters it. Like escaping…she is just like me in this habit.

Sending love to my mama ❤️ you had me, and now I have her. I see so much of me in her. She is a troublemaker.

Lots of love 💕

Concrete Project.

It’s a great feeling when someone doubts you, and you prove them wrong exponentially.

We had a project of doing our concrete patio slab. And originally my husband was going to do it himself, but someone said we should have a team of five guys helping…so of course five guys turned into me with the baby on my chest.

And you must know I have never done concrete work before. He woke me up 20min before the truck was showing up saying he is going to need some help.

But the truck driver also was surprised that my husband didn’t have extra help, and was more surprised when I was there to help with a baby strapped to my front. The man also said that it would be an all day project.

However, much to his dismay, we got it all spread out in one hour. The truck got there at 9:30 and left at 11:00. Haha ‘all day project’ nope.

So I guess my husband, me and the baby is enough to do 450 sq feet. I felt super spiffy.

So now that man can go back to his business astonished; and if he ever sees workers slacking off he can tell them about the time he saw a husband and his wife, with the baby, do a patio slab themselves.

Mwahahahahah!!!

The driveway is the next project, and that will be easier. 😎

Kiss.

I think the sweetest thing in the world… Is getting a kiss from your baby. When they don’t know how to give you a smooch and they just open up their mouth and place their whole everything on your cheek… and they give a soft giggle at the same time; it is one of the sweetest things in the world.

And when you return the kiss they laugh and giggle. That small giggle makes you feel so happy and warm.

As I’m writing this she’s talking along with me. She wants to help as mommy writes.

Even if it’s a thought of a kiss or a real one give it to someone you love today.💕

So you ever feel like your life stopped before it began. It’s not like I gave up or anything, but it seems like I’m in a rut.

Which when I say it (or typed it) it sounds awful because I’m a mama now. I have a wonderful 8 month old baby and I am super happy. She is now my everything.

I just feel like I missed out on a lot of things. Like college, I’ve never wanted to go to college before, but recently I’ve been regretting it. The social aspect of college, having only 2 life long friends you never see is difficult…

But again I love being a mama.

I guess a lot of it is, is that I gave up a lot of hobbies. I don’t do anything anymore. I don’t draw, paint, sew, dance, socialize…

Which again, I know, when you become a mama lots of things change, but I miss those activities.

As soon as my sleeping schedule is normal I will get back into drawing, but like today, my baby is wide awake at 2:00am; so it might be awhile.

I guess for me, I shouldn’t feel like I do, but I do. I’m in a rut and I don’t see me changing anytime soon.

But I love my baby dearly. She is my sweet thing. And she knows it ❤️

My sweet thing at 3:03 am

Self conscious…

Being called out for one of your past selfs actions, can hit you and make you feel so self conscious. It’s amazing I thought as I grew up I wouldn’t get embarrassed as much…mostly because having a baby changes you.

But still having someone you love make-fun of something you did before, makes your heart hurt. I know it wasn’t on purpose and the person meant to be funny but I’ve always been a self conscious person. I’m not spontaneous, I can’t be…especially now as the thing I was teased about was something I did spontaneously. It makes you think back through your life and question everything else.

Writing helps me deal with my problems or feelings, and move past them. It’s not a big thing it’s just something small…but it still gets me.

So I guess…don’t be afraid to be spontaneous. It terrifies me, but I’ll teach my daughter to be…she’ll learn the awesomeness of planning, but I hope she will not be as self conscious…being self conscious 90% of the time is not the greatest way to live. But I make do, because that’s how I am and I want to be just me.

Happy Tuesday, just because every day should be a happy day…😊

My cover photo ‘Facebook picture’ didn’t have someone’s name, just something I found.