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Art, Creativity, Reflections, Word Of The Day

Word Of The Day: Scion 10-08-21

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Synonyms: 1. Cutting, graft, slip, shoot, etc. 2. Descendant, heir, successor, child.

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Weighted amounts,

Suffocating

Squeezing the life

Out of you.

Demanding accounts,

Of pressure grating,

Away youth with a knife.

Now anger grew.

Will effort ever count?

Constantly hating;

Everyone is a lowlife.

Days are always blue.

…

So you could read it from an heir point of view but I also saw parts of my childhood.

When I swam competitively, my dad had lots of expectations. He wanted me to be the best. That I should never fail.

Don’t get me wrong, I am already a super competitive person; but he took it too far sometimes.

The screaming at me because I failed to win, the ridiculing me in front of others, the threatening me about having to walk home out of shame, etc.

At some point I said he could no longer come to my swim meets. I think I was 10…? I forgot to tell him my lane and afterwards, he yelled at me in front of everyone. That time pushed me tears and I had to call my mom to come get me because my dad left me.

Not funny…but funny how different phrases can sting or bring back unpleasant memories.

“Pressure” B
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10-08-21

But after that meet, my mom was my new supporter. She was great support. If I lost a race it was, “at least you didn’t drown” or “you did look like you were dying out there.” Haha! And if I won… “good job!” She was the best kind of support ❤️ Don’t get me wrong; my mom is competitive in her own way.

So I guess…parents out there that are competitive… remember not to go too far. My two year old already likes all kinds of sports… so I’m taking my own advice. I don’t want to continue what my dad did, but what my mom did. Maybe with a controlled amount of competitiveness. This is only referring to my daughter. If it’s me alone I’m going to be my ultra super crazy competitive person that I am!! My hubby won’t play games with me. ☹️

Have a family filled Friday! 🏡

Art, Creativity, Poetry

Word Of The Day: Ossify 08-25-21

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Synonyms: harden, stiffen, rigidify, etc.

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Fighting,

Yelling,

Tears.

The one becomes two.

Hurting,

Shunning,

Glares.

Hate lives in the forefront.

Harding,

Corroding,

Stiffen.

The heart beats for no one.

Accepting,

Trying,

Defeated.

Timing in love is key.

Freeing,

Living,

Peace.

Love yourself first.

…

Most everyone has experienced his cycle. Unless you were one of the lucky ones and you had your other half from the get go.

The word is ossify. I must be honest I’ve never heard of this word. When I saw the synonyms my first thought of a break up. My first break-up was…wow thirteen years ago. 😳 Haha, but I tried to remember the emotions I felt after. I also asked my hubby; his was about seven years ago…but he was no help; he was trying to be too deep. 😅

My vacation has been exciting but full. I’m enjoying myself, but I’m also taking this chance to catch up on my sleep. Hopefully my sleeping schedule changes from that of a teenager.

Give your other half, or even yourself a hug today. Love is strong in any form. Enjoy your Wednesday! 🌺

Loss of Love Cycle
emily2jane
08-25-21
Art, Art Through The Years, Creativity

Art Through The Years! #2

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Originally I had planned to post a comic, but due to different reasons my self drawing came out terrible… like I looked more like a fifty year old man…haha 😂 So I gave up on that route. I’ll try again another day; when my brain is in the mood to draw my face.

Instead I’ll be posting a few more drawings I’ve done. Yes, some of the drawings were inspired by images from the internet, ten or more years ago. So these new drawings are my impressions of my impressions. Impressions are always the best route to take.

Why would you want to paint someone’s work identical…it’s already been done. Put your own spin on it!

2010

It’s not too bad. I will admit, not too bad for the markers I used here. They were those fifty pack of markers…. I don’t know the brand, but they are like $10 from Walmart.

My first day 2021

Can I just say… I want this dress! Maybe I should take sewing up again… 🤨

2021!

This next completed drawing is a mixture of three separate drawings. I added a bit to fill the spaces, but I actually do love the end result!

These are the three drawings:

2011
2011
2010

When you see the finished picture you will see I only used two of the fairies. But I thought it would be too crazy. So I only used the ideas of the flowers; but of course I tweaked them a little.

2021 Finished

This one I framed! I’ve framed others, but only if I really liked the outcome.

2010

As you can see… I was kind of terrible at profiles. I always seemed to chop their noses off…haha! Also the proportions in this drawing seems off.

I do remember though, that the butterfly lines was done with silver sharpie! I will be doing that, or something similar with my 2021 drawing.

2021

I’ve decided to change the colors in this drawing. I want to try something new!

Well I want to continue but…It seems like my baby is getting a little cold. It’s the first day it rained, this season. We needed it desperately, but my daughter just took a two hour nap at 5pm… meaning I’ll be going to bed sometime after 12am. If I’m lucky.

But I’ll be posting my pictures here and there. I’m enjoying going through the pictures, that I chose to draw over ten years ago; reliving my interests.

Enjoy your Friday! We shall see what my brain decides.

Art, Creativity, Poetry, Reflections

A Piece

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…

Colors bleed,

Mixing and twisting;

Becoming one.

Light defies darkness;

Casting aside,

Into the shadows,

While instead gleams thrive.

Someone is watching you;

Your eyes meet.

Dare to look away?

No…stay.

Question their story,

Push the boundaries;

Enter their fantasy.

…

I’ve been drawing. It seems like it has taken over my life once again. The poem is inspired by artwork. If you label yourself as an artist you understand, not being able to look away. Wanting to understand everything about the piece.

Recently I’ve decided to redraw my old drawings. As I started, I discovered that my old drawings are from 10 years ago…! (I never throw anything away…)

I now have 10 more years of experience, 10 more years of supplies, 10 more years of patience.

I’ll share the few I’ve done. It’s only been 2 days since I decided to try this…and remember I have a 2 year old. It’s been hard to stop my creative bug; and return back into a responsible mama…

09-03-11

I believe I found this off the internet. I have no recollection of where or by whom…but I am sure it did not look like this.

It’s not too bad. But seeing it makes me wonder why I didn’t measure out a square…or even attempt to make the border straight…

08-11-21

This is my impression of my impression from 10 years ago… I like this one better!

I went all spiffy on it and added the stars detail with paint… because I can. 😎

Next one…

09-05-11

This picture…I believe the stance of the girl was off the internet, but it was just a black line drawing of the girl. I did all the rest from my imagination.

I must say. I still like this one. It’s inspiring! Embrace life! Be free!

08-11-21

This one is still beautiful, but it seems more… graceful. I’m actually not completely done with this one. I still need to add some details.

In all of this, it has been fun to go back in time and see my old self in my art.

Maybe you should try this too! Dig through the drawers and find a drawing, painting, doodle; and redraw it. Maybe your skills have improved too!

Enjoy your Thursday! May it be filled with color!

Creativity, Poetry

Word Of The Day: Parry 07-17-21

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Synonyms: ward off, fend off, deflect, hold off, block

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It’s a constant battle,

You are always at war.

They claw and scratch;

Ripping at your soul.

Your insides are rattled,

Chaos to your core.

Ruthlessly they attach;

Demanding control.

Fight against them!

Fend them off!

Be firm;

He is on your side.

As they latch on your hem;

Point and scoff.

Don’t allow any squirm.

Help is always provided…

God thrives inside.

…

Quite obvious the topic choice. After reading the synonyms my first thought was… what lurks in the darkness. They come in many forms; we constantly fight them off. But for me I don’t fear them, because I have the light of God inside of me. Don’t fear because God loves everyone!!

Whenever I think about battling darkness, I think of that intense novel, This Present Darkness, by Frank E. Peretti. I love that book! But a piece of advice…don’t read it at night. I stayed up until 4am when I read it the first time.

Have a strong and faithful day!! ❤️

Digital Art: My Guardian Angel
By emily2jane
07-17-21

That’s someone darkness does not want to mess with. You are toast, if you do dare.

Creativity, Poetry, Reflections

Word Of The Day: Mulct 07-08-21

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Synonyms: forfeit, defraud, trick, swindle, penalize, fine, deceive, punish, etc

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Is this true?

How can it be?

Was I not the only one?

No; way more than two.

I was never set free,

Our life had just begun.

Did he ever try?

While I was flying high…

My love was deceived;

It was tricked, twisted,

Even swindled from my heart.

All was accepted and believed;

And yet,

It probably never existed.

I thought I was clever;

I thought I was smart.

Instead I’m left upset.

Was it not for forever?

I sit here,

My love slipping through my fingers,

The uncertainty fear,

Just lingers.

…

Everyone has experienced that relationship that you had full trust in and ended up being all a lie. I did.

My mom saw red flags, but I chose to believe it was right. Instead in the end, I was left questioning myself. At the time it hurt but looking back now, it was a great life lesson. Which for me, made me more picky and less gullible. Then I met the hubby! God made the hubby be the last one; so, that I knew he was perfectly made for me.

Those in the world who has experienced this. It is not the end. Everyone has that person. It will just take some time. I went through almost thirty, first dates…😳

Don’t give up. Just take it as a life lesson. Watch for the red flags. Also at least acknowledge, when you parent or friends around you makes a comment. 💙

Digital Art
by emily2jane
07-08-21
Creativity, Poetry, Reflections

Word Of The Day: Virtuoso 06-12-21

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Synonyms: genius,expert, master, artist, prodigy…etc.

I am, because I can.

Nothing escapes me.

My inspirations ran,

As vast as the sea.

It spills from my hands,

My soul thriving.

The world demands,

For others to climb;

But only I will be striving.

Nothing defeats.

I conquer.

I create time.

Dishonor,

Is not for the elites.

…

I was trying to think in the mindset of someone who is a master of their craft. It was difficult to put it into a poem that rhymes…

Rereading through my poem I thought of my teenage years…when I swam. People say that you are a master when you have done it for 7 years…I did it for…15 years. But now looking back, I feel like I never reached that level of Master.

I was not a prodigy or a virtuoso…but as an athlete you had to have that mindset. That you were the top; that you were the one to set things in motion.

I miss that feeling…

Digital Art
by emily2jane
06-13-21

I tried to capture that determined feeling in this art. When I look at it it does remind me of that feeling I desperately miss.

Creativity, Poetry

Word Of The Day: Altruism

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Altruism…selflessness, charitable, generous, unselfish…

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Warm, comfortable, and full.

They freeze, hurt, and starve.

Some grab, argue, or pull.

They accept, thank, and smile.

Few stay awhile.

They stay sometimes forever.

…

This poem might not make sense. Especially tying in the word of the day, but when I thought of a selfless person I thought of someone would give unconditionally.

As I am writing I am actually think of the real true selfless one: God; but initially for this poem I thought of comparing homeless and not. But the act of selflessness goes to the one who helps those in need.

Yes. It is hard to differentiate actual need from selfishness. I know you should not judge them. You should just be willing. But sadly I’ve changed.

When I had no care and I made enough, if I saw someone I would help. This was also before being homeless was a popular life plan.

But I would give them something they could use: a blanket, food, or sometimes my personal jacket without thinking twice.

But now you see people taking advantage. You see people in designer accessories, or some people with signs: ‘Need money. Don’t want to work,’ sitting on street corners.

But the one I will never think twice is a child. My heart breaks. I wish I could do more. Yes. It could be a possibility that they might be lying, but I will never walk by a child and not help. Anyone who can…😞

The word of the day is altruism. I must admit, I had no idea what it meant. But now I can add another word to my vocabulary!

I hope you can try to be selfless today. It doesn’t have be a certain type of person. It might be your buddy, colleague, or family. Just help without thinking. Brighten up someone’s day!

Digital Art by emily2jane
5-21-21
Reflections

Saturday

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I was going to draw a comic last night, but instead I decided to enjoy time with my family.

I was going to prepare another exciting post, but I have terrible allergies.

I was going to do a lot of things, but instead I will enjoy my time when my mama is visiting. And try to be rid of my allergies.

Enjoy your Saturday!!

Digital Art by emily2jane
05-15-21
Poetry, Reflections

Yellow!

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You see me in the sunshine,

Especially in a sunset sky.

I sometimes peek through clouds,

Stretching to touch everywhere.

I shimmer around children’s smiles,

And even color their hair.

If you think of happy,

You will probably find me there.

…

Elizabeth’s outfit yesterday was my inspiration for the poem. Just a happy poem for a happy day.

Yesterday was the day to pick up Grandma!! So I decided Elizabeth would wear her new yellow dress.

I am so jealous because I love the color yellow, but I am unable to wear it.

But as I see Elizabeth in her dress, I think about a poetry book I used to read in my younger days…Ride A Purple Pelican. If you do not know this book, I definitely recommend it.

I sadly do not own it myself, but I will soon now that I remember.

Elizabeth is my very own Molly Day today. (Reference to the book)

Just a post of remembering memories. Watching my daughter’s childhood and remembering my own…❤️🌸

Have a great Thursday 🌼

My sweet sweet
5-12-21